Last Chance – Alon Anava Clinical Death Story

have you ever thought where you go when you die have you ever wondered what's beyond this world you believe in God I got an answer for you yeah bye eonni haha though he didn't eat ha ha my name is Alona Nava nine years ago I had a near-death experience was basically dead some call it clinical death others call it near-death experience I like to call it my life after death experience I grew up in Israel totally far away from religion the most secular possible I did not believe in God I was not spiritual at all I lived my life how I wanted totally wild you you surely this experience totally changed my life I saw my death I saw my life till then and I saw forward my new life I saw the truth never in my wildest dreams thought I'll be totally Orthodox the whole way the real thing it always looked insane to me but now that I saw the truth I'm here to share it Oh Oh you're annoying my love my life changed from one end to the other change it only with the force of God my name is Alona Nava and I was born and raised in Israel and I grew up in a non-religious family a secular family my whole life religion didn't interest me I didn't believe in God I didn't believe in any type of spirituality I just lived my life like a secular Jew secular Israeli and I didn't have any interest in religion even more than that the religion looked to me ridiculous and the religious people looked insane and I didn't have any connection to religion and I didn't want to have any connection until the day that it happened and my story happened in New York about nine years ago and it happened on a very special day it happened on Saturday morning and the Jewish date was you dallied Nisan noodle idli Sun is the day before Passover Passover starts at night at the 15th of Nisan and it happened the morning of you Dalit Nissan which is the day when the Jews left Egypt very symbolic to what happened and as I said the story happened here in New York and I'm just going to go straight to the story because the story is long with a lot of details and I just like giving a small introduction before I start since the story is so far-fetched and the experience is so different then I use terms that I find right to actually explain the story it's almost like having a dream and when you wake up in the morning and you remember the dream real good but you you can't find the words to describe the dream but you remember every detail perfect and I always used a parable that a person went on a vacation and when he comes back he tells his friend that he had an amazing vacation and he tells them you know what did you see what did you experience and he said you know we ate this amazing fruit and he tells him what did it taste like was it sweet was it sour was it what it tastes like and he tells it he answers him I can't answer you because we don't have such of a taste here and he tells him okay what color was it was blue was it red was it green he's like I can't tell you we don't have the scholar here it's kind of the same the experience is so from a different place that I have to find the words to describe it that it would be most close to what I remember before I even start telling you the whole thing there's going to be probably a lot of questions that are not answered the story is very long with a lot of details I will leave later on information how you can find more answers to questions you have and there's a place on the site that you can ask questions later on and I will answer them but I would I will try as much as I can to be informative and just bear in mind that a lot of the details are how I find the words to explain it like I said it started about it happened about nine years ago and I was in a very different stage in life where I'm now I was completely far away from religion and I was actually a pretty wild and I'm sure you saw in the intro of some of the pictures and it all started in a party that kind of to give you an idea in the background how it came to it is I consumed a few types of different drugs which caused my heart to stop and what's called in a professional term cardiac arrest and the firt at first when the whole thing started I felt extremely sick I felt there's no way to describe it but saying I felt I'm going to die and I left the party and we went into a taxi and I had a girl with me and we were sitting in the cab driving and there's really not a way to describe I felt but that I felt like I'm going to die and as the cab was driving and my mind is my thoughts are running in my mind and what I felt was a strong feeling of remorse strong feeling that that I missed something a strong feeling that I it up I lost my chance that that there's no words to describe it really and besides the physical besides the physical feeling that I felt there's no word to describe it I just felt I'm going to die I felt so sick and so bad there's no words to describe it but mentally the the feeling of disappoint I like as if I disappointed myself like if I didn't accomplish what I was supposed to do and suddenly I don't even know where it came from I said the the verse my /ml okay no shame Ahad and then I remember myself falling down on the girl that was sitting next to me and whoever knows the taxis in New York they have like a partition between the back and the front I remember seeing the whole partition going down and this is where it starts at first I feel that I'm diving out of my eyes and I'm waking up in this extremely weird and different domain and the first thing that I feel is complete silence silence that I never heard before we don't notice how how noisy everything is our day to day life we don't even realize how much noise is around us and the first thing that was so strong is the silence there was nothing there was no type of sound and after that I started feeling extremely light like as if I'm floating the combination of not having any sound at all and like floating it was so peaceful it was just amazing amazingly peaceful and after that I noticed that the whole concept of time there wasn't any time I didn't have to go anywhere I didn't have a watch on my hand I didn't have any appointments I did I wasn't limited in time I was just floating there in this place of nothing complete silence and feeling very very light and in no time the whole time concept completely disappeared and the feeling was amazing was calming I wasn't afraid it wasn't any fear just calm amazing feeling and as the time went by there wasn't any time but as it went by I was like there's no other words to really describing it but everyone speaks with themselves everybody has their thoughts and you say to yourself oh I have to do this after that but you said in your thoughts so on the same level of communication I was like telling to myself in my thoughts so far so cool what's going on like where am I what's going on you know it's very weird like it wasn't it wasn't familiar and in the same type of communication like as if a voice is answering to me you're dead this is your death and I'm like what what do you mean this is my death and it's telling me you're dead alone is dead and it's kind of like pointing down so we do see something and I and I look down like as if I'm looking down and I see my body on the girl and I don't feel like any like any connection so much to the to the to the body it's like as if I'm seeing something from far away and a question that I get a lot is what do mean a voice was talking to you it wasn't a voice it's very hard to describe it but the same level of communication that you think we just with yourself you have a thought there's a there's a language in your thought if you're American you're thinking English if you're Israelis you think in Hebrew same thing with brains in a dream there's a type of a communication but there's no voices in a dream there's nobody talking to you in a dream there's just a some type of a very intellectual level of communication so the same thing that voice that I call the voice was communicating with me and the same thing that in the dream you you kind of see things in the inner in a way that is familiar for you but it's a different reality so when I was saying it was kind of like pointing down it wasn't a hand pointing down it was more of a knowledge telling me look down anyways I'm looking down to the body and and I don't feel any connection like it's like like seeing a movie and and I say this is how a long dies this is like that's the end in a cab in New York this is like the story of a lone and it tells me yes you're dead this is how it ends and it didn't didn't like face me in a negative way it wasn't like that I was like oh I died what a shame it didn't faze me I was a floating in this beautiful place that I didn't see anything it was like having my eyes closed and just lying in this quiet place and as the time went by which again there wasn't any time but as the scene went by I felt like I'm being pulled up a little bit higher and a little bit higher and everything seemed like as if I'm lying on my stomach looking down and the whole time I'm seeing the scene of my body on the girl in the car and then something amazing happened it's like as if I dived through the girl and it's like as if I scared her life the day she was born to the present and it went like a split second but at the same time it looked like a whole lifetime and when I'm saying I scanned her it's like as if I lived in her body and I saw her memories I thought her thoughts I felt her pain everything that she went through from this first day she was born till that second I saw now it wasn't that I was like sitting and watching like 50 screens and seeing everything going on it was going simultaneously so I like lived her life in in a paste of this world but at the same time was like a strike of lightning and what was amazing is that it's like I thought her thoughts and I felt her feelings and when it came to the present I was thinking and understanding and going through what she's going when my body's on her I felt how she was like getting all hyped up and how she's freaking out and how she's she's like everything that was going in her mind there's really not words to really describe the feeling but it was literally as if I lived in her body and saw everything and felt everything and here I kind of take a stop from the experience to to kind of clarify a concept that is very well known in Kabbalah and it's brought down by Hasidic philosophy that God has many levels how he reveals himself the essence of God is so holy that anything that will just stand in front of it will just be an old kind of like if you'll take a man and put him in front of a Sun if you put a man in front of the Sun the man will melt within seconds it's the same thing with the relations with God if you will put any type of creation in front of God with no barriers that thing will be completely annul just because of the level of holiness so what God does he conceals himself he puts layers to conceal the gladly revelation this world has the lowest revelation of godliness the lowest level and it corresponds to the name of God Elohim the numerical value of Elohim is hot ever nature what we see in this world is nature that's God that's God revealing himself to us to the creations on this world and the way he reveals himself is in the shape of nature so when we see trees and water and and and sky and animals and anything vegetation everything that we see that is God you see God all day long you don't realize that it's God you don't accept that it's God because it's just God concealing himself so much that's how we see God and this world is basically bound by sizes we have days we have seconds we have minutes we have kilometers miles everything in this world is defined in a size nothing is limitless in this world everything has a limit if it's a second to a minute to an hour to a day to a month to a year or if you go by the size it's it's one feet two feet a mile two miles a continent but nothing is limitless now one level higher of godly revelation corresponds to the word the name of Hashem which is you'd cave of K javea and if you break the word 2/3 in Hebrew its hiya hava ye he a past present future in that level of godliness time has no has no value there's no value the past the present in the future is one thing it's a much higher level of godliness it's a level that we can understand we can't understand the concept that there's no past and dissolve present and the future everything is one thing so it's way beyond our understanding the reason why I'm telling you all that is when I left my body the the soul was able to get a much higher level of godliness that the whole concept of time there wasn't any concept of time the past was at the same time with ever the present like the whole concept of time just was not there that's why I was like seeing her past at the same time at the present and even then happened like a small thing that it's like as if I saw a little bit into the future and I saw how my parents are getting like the notice that I died and and and I see my parents crying and I see my sister's crying and it's like as if I see like a little step into the future and the whole time that this is happening I'm still not really registering what's going on it's like I'm enjoying the the experience up to that point it was like beyond amazing but the connection to the body there wasn't any connection like it was like okay it was it's like a different thing and the experience even the connection even to the girl there was another a real connection but it was like a channel how I'm relating to this world and this went on it's hard for me to define in time because it looked like a split second and at the same time it looked like years and every detail was registered I was able to see every detail every every thought every memory was like beyond clear and as all this is happening I feel that I'm you know being elevated and I'll going a little bit higher and a little bit higher and a little bit higher and the more I go higher I see more like a bigger area like before I just saw the body on the girl as I'm going higher I see a little bit of the cab and I still would around it and the more the again there's no time but the more the time is going by it's like I'm getting more connected to the whole the whole domain and what I mean by that at some point it felt like as if I'm like in the height of like six floors looking down and and then we it was it's it was in Manhattan and we were driving by in Manhattan and somewhere in along the way we hit a bridge and it's like as if I went through the bridge because I was like kind of like you know following the cab like I'm you know a magnet flying above the cab and the cab went like under a bridge and when I went through the bridge it's like as if I saw the illusion of this world like the graphic design of this world and the way to kind of explain it is you know you go into a website and you look at the website the website is beautiful there's colors and there's text and there's videos and pictures in you and you click this button and it takes you to another page and the whole website is functioning and alive and it reacts and the website looks beautiful but if you take like the design off the website what you'll see is a bunch of letters like the code that actually creates the program behind the website and a person who has no experience or no knowledge in in programming it will just look like you know a bunch of letters and there's not going to be any that sometime make any sense but when that design is on it other words that looks beautiful you see everything everything is understandable so it's kind of the same thing it's like I saw like the design of this world what we see we see like buildings and colors and cars and trees like the delusion of this world that's how we see it but as if like the illusion was removed and I saw how the world is structured and it's kind of funny but there's a movie it's called the matrix if you saw it you you will probably understand what I'm talking about if you didn't see it I definitely recommend to see it at least the first part because the other two parts are not so good but the first part shows it extremely well towards the end of the movie you see the the hero the movie Niro he's like he's that he dies and then he gets up again and you see he sees the whole world how it's built from letters letters and numbers and that's how it is and later on I found out it says very clearly in the book of Tonya written by the the the alter rebbe the first lubavitcher rebbe seven generations ago famous book called Tanya and he explains it in depth how the world is being created by the speech of God in the first book of the of the Bible it says God spoke and he created the world and he spoke and he created the earth he spoke and he created the heaven so in the tanya it explains very very in-depth and very clearly that the world is being created by the letters that God is speaking and the letters they create this world so I was able to see like the I call it the illusion of this world because what we see it's not really there it's like we it's it's what our eyes and mind is programmed to see but it's in actual it's not and actually in in that movie I said the matrix even though it's like a you know a Hollywood production and there's a lot of action and shooting and killing the the concept behind the movies is brilliant the whole movies based on Kabbalah on on Judaism it was written by there were sure Warshofsky brothers and they took the whole concept of II of Judaism based on Kabbalah and they made a movie out of it if you can take the action out of it you can see the concept amazingly clear but to really put it in simple words is it's like I was able to see the illusion how the world is created and more than that I said before the world is like defined in measurements it's like I saw how the illusion is being combined how the limit is combined with the limitless it's there's really no no words to really define it and and like I said in the beginning I don't stop on too many details whatever is not clear you can ask later and and and hopefully I can answer but there's no other words to describe it but beyond amazing it's like kind of seeing how the world is not how we know it and then happen even something even more amazing I was like literally in the height of like six floors and we drove like past a building and and at the same time I was able to see everything that's going on in the building every little apartment every little room whatever was happening there I saw it simultaneously like as if I'm sitting in this big big room and it's like I see a thousand TVs but I'm able to understand and register everything that's going on at the same time and it's funny I always add that that's my wife when I met her she was you know getting closer to religion and and she had her doubts she was going backwards and forth and when I told her that part she she was like she was telling me this part everything registered because up to now I felt that you know the six billion people in this world trillion trillions of creatures why would God think of me like Who am I to God I'm one of billions why would even care about it it does even know that I exist and she said when I heard that I realized that if you were able to see in one building at the same time everything that's happening to tens dozens or hundreds of people understood that every little piece of creation God knows notices and has a personal connection with it and it's exactly like that even though it happened like in in this world's time like a split second it's like as if every scene had its moment had its time and I was able to see not only what's happening there like as if I'm looking out of her out of a TV I was able to understand and feel the feelings and and everything was registered when I saying registered it's like is me as if I was looking at the person that was sitting in the room and feeling what he felt thinking was what he thought he was a person was sad I felt the sadness if the person was happy I felt the happiness it was like as if I was able to tap into everything at the same time now this whole part that I'm talking about in this life for seconds but this whole part looked like I'm there for years it looked like I'm there for for eternity but it just looked like years and to kind of sum it up how it was in general it was an amazing feeling no pain no fear was really relaxing I didn't have any worries I didn't have anything negative it was just like as if something was embracing me and hugging me and it was like amazing amazing feeling unfortunately it didn't go on for long suddenly without any any warning I felt like something is just jumping behind me and like wrapping me and like this blanket let's say and within a split second I'm waking up in this completely pitch pitch dark domain when I feel something is like grabbing me from behind and not grabbing me like squeezing me to a point that I can't even move before that I felt like all free and floating and the end and at this point I felt like that thing is holding me so strong that not only that I can't move it was like it was painful and when I'm saying pitch-black there's no way to describe how dark it was I always give an example like that you you wake up sometimes in the middle of the night and the room is completely dark and you like for a few seconds you kind of don't know what's going on where you are but then you see a little bit of light coming from the window and maybe a little bit light shining from the from the alarm clock and you okay I'm in bed and you kind of relax the darkness was just nothing but darkness was black thick black and I know it might sound like maybe childís but it was so scary the darkness was beyond beyond scary it was just pitch black and then I felt up till then I felt that I'm facing down looking down at that point I felt like I'm kind of turned over and looking up and and that thing was squeezing me so strong it it felt like it's like smashing me and everything turned turned over like it was suddenly extremely scary extremely painful I didn't know where I am I didn't know how I got there I kind of like lost let's say memory for what happened a few seconds before that just I I just woke up there and there's no other words to really describe it but fear that there's no there's no way to describe this fear and in my mind my thought I'm like I knew kind of what's going on it's like I knew it was a level of understanding that that you just know something I just knew that something is not good and at this part there's a lot of details and I really I don't go into all the details mainly because a lot of viewers I found are not so interested to hear because they're a little bit harsh like I said before if you're interested there's a area on the top of the blog where you get off the top of the site where you can kind of ask questions but basically what I felt is that that black thing I call it the black thing because it was pitch black you can kind of call it the angel of death I just call it the the black thing because that's how it felt and beyond the fear and beyond the pain it felt like first of all I didn't know how I got there and more than that I didn't know how I'm getting out of there and I always connected to a scenario imagine a person that gets sentenced to jail for 40 years now you know 40 years it's not fun but the person knows that in that 40 years he's going to have where to sleep he's going to have what to eat he's going to have friends he's gonna he can interact with the people and you know now in jails you can study you can do you can do many things he knows he's going to be somewhere he's going to be safe and at the end of the 40 years he's going out so he kind of knows what's going on even though it's it's not fun but he knows what's waiting for him imagine on the other hand a soldier that gets captured by the enemy and the first few seconds when he gets captured he doesn't know what's gonna what's going to happen in his mind he can be dead in an hour or he can be thrown in some pits somewhere and being tortured for 10 years he doesn't know what's waiting for him he has no rights he has no lawyer defending him he has no family visits he is nothing he's captured in with by the enemy that wants to basically kill him kill him torture him do anything the worst the worst that you could think of imagine what's going on in the mind of the of the person magnified that a billion I knew I was being held by the worst thing ever I knew that there's no way for me to get out of there in my mind and my thoughts I was like that's it that's my eternity and it's not that I was stuck on a beautiful island that thing was so scary there's there's no words to define how scary it was and I always give another example imagine that hypothetically we'll take up a man and thrown in space of course the man can't survive in space but hypothetically let's say you throw a man in space so he's just floating in space knowing that a billion miles this way there's nothing and a billion miles this way there's nothing there's basically nothing all around him and he can't move he's just floating in the space kind of the same idea that's how I felt that I'm in the middle of nothing there's nothing around me and I can't move and I'm basically stuck there and unfortunately the the feeling was just going and becoming stronger and stronger and stronger and stronger like kind of having an anxiety that was just becoming worse more scary and more frightening and the thing that was holding me the way to define it in easy words it's like I saw the devil in the shape of a human and he's basically telling me you're mine I own you and you're mine and that's it and in bait in different words it's basically you're you're you're at luck because I'm gonna do whatever I want with you and there's really no words to define the fear it's an atmosphere it's an endless fear of I don't know what's waiting for me and then started all the the pain in it it's not like a physical pain that you fall and you know there's a pain okay so you take a painkiller this is this is not that type of a pain it felt first of all that it's not holding me it felt that that it's ripping me it's basically taking pieces of me and ripping them off me and there's no way to really describe the pain because it's not a physical pain a physical pain is limited there's a limit at some point the pain stops either you faint why do you take a painkiller this pain didn't stop it was just accelerating and echoing and it wasn't a physical pain what was more like a spiritual pain a mental pain there's really not words to really describe what's a spiritual pain but to start with it's a pain that doesn't stop and it's a pain that becomes stronger and stronger and it's it's like a mental pain and the more the time passes by everything is just getting worse and worse and worse and it seemed like I was there I'm not exaggerating it seemed like I was there for eternity it seemed like I was there for five million years and I'm by myself there and it was the most scariest thing I can ever ever imagine that there's no there's literally no words to describe how scary it is knowing that nothing can get you out of there not can help you and that thing is just it won't let go and it was echoing basically you know your mind I'm gonna I'm gonna rip you to pieces that's it and at some point it's like as if I understood everything I knew exactly why I'm there I knew that I basically messed up I did bad things I knew this is payback time this is the time that's it this is time to pay and the more the time went by it's like I felt like I've being pulled through a funnel and end in the end and the pulling is like this ripping pieces off me there's no words to really describe the whole scene and and as this thing is going it's like I feel like I'm going through like I can't say it feel like I'm going through a tunnel because it just was like this big empty domain but it's like as if flying and you know how you you see the movies like Enterprise and Star Wars that they're a spaceship is like flying in in space and you see like objects are just moving it's like as if I saw objects it wasn't objects but it's like as if I saw my my my sins going through me and every time I saw one of them there's no words to describe the pain or the fear or the shame or all the negative feelings that came with it I really don't go into much details about that because it's kind of less important at this point I also have short videos more in detail explaining what does it mean I saw my sins I don't go I continue at that point because there's another point that kind of kind of explains it even a little bit better but to kind of put it in a few words it's like I saw every sin that I did and it came to revenge it came to take back what I took and it came in a form of of an extremely negative way it was either extreme scary and either it was extremely painful it was basically it looked like there's a concept in in Judaism and not necessarily I'm not too sure how it's called in English in Hebrew is called Malachi Kabbalah like destructive angels angels that come to destruct and these destructive angels are like messengers that they come to do their job to destruct the one who creates those destructive angels is you you create your own destructive angels that come later on to take what they feel they own to sum it up there's no words to really describe the this experience painful – no – no wait no words scary that and you know I was never scared of anything I was like the bravest kid in the block I would jump off buildings I would do the most scariest things I wasn't scared of anything this was the most scariest thing you can even you can't even imagine and the just a thought like a little kid thrown somewhere with no nobody to help him nobody to save him nobody to support him there's no words to describe and I knew everything I knew how bad I was I knew that I created this for myself but I also knew that the only way to get out of that is God the only thing that is beyond this devil that told me that's it I'm the superior here I'm controlling right now the situation nothing can save you nothing can get you out of this I knew that the only one that's about that is God and I started like screaming – God help me get me out of here now like I said before it seemed like I was there for five million years I'm not exaggerating it feel felt like I'm there for eternity and I started screaming – God help me get me out of this like I'm you know like little kids when they did something bad and they get in trouble I'm sorry I'm not gonna do it again I'm sorry please forgive me I'll be a good boy I was I kind of crying to God just get me out of here just save me and suddenly after like a trillion years of being there I saw like this small dot of light it's barely saw it it was so small I barely saw it but there was something and seeing a little bit of light in this darkness it's seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and that happened like after five trillion years and I'm maybe saying it it like in a funny way but that's how it felt it's felt like eternity and I see this light and I knew that if I can reach to that light then I can be saved and that light started coming closer and closer and closer and nearer and closer and the more it came closer it was like bright bright bright white light and it but it was coming closer it was in a shape of a triangle like a triangle that way and it was coming closer and closer and closer and the more it was coming closer it was just just covering everything it was just became so big that there was nothing but that light I always give an example there's a movie called Independence Day whoever didn't see it it's not so important but there's a part that the spaceship is coming over Earth and it's just covering earth and all you see this patient so it's kind of to visualize what I mean but the light became so big that it covered everything there was nothing but that light and that light was at one at one point it was just so bright but on the other hand it wasn't like bad like it you know it's like kind of looking in the Sun look at the Sun after three set of a second you can't even look at the seventh anymore because it's so bright so I was able to look at it and it was so bright but I was able to look at it and I knew that behind that light that's God I knew that's God in front of me I knew that if if I can I knew that there wasn't a chance for me to get behind the light but I knew that this is God standing in front of me and just having the the presence I don't know how to describe it I wasn't like afraid or worried or it was just like a like a I can aw like like the biggest thing that can exist is standing in front of me there's no word words to really describe how I felt like I'm standing in front of this huge wall of light it was so huge like as if you're standing and you look at the horizon and you can see like sometimes you know half of the world or you think you see like a big wide piece of the land and it was everything was that light everywhere and suddenly out of this light like as if something reached out and grabbed me and the second it grabbed me was like a hand coming out but it felt like something was reaching out and making a connection and the second it grabbed me there's no other there's no other words to really describe it but the way I kind of put it in words I felt like trillions of billions of gigabytes of information being downloaded to me and let me make it a little bit more clear imagine a computer imagine a laptop a little piece of metal that is worth $100 it's nothing it's a piece of metal you just take a wire connect the laptop to the wire connect the wire to the wall and within a split second this little piece of metal that is worthless has access to all the information in the world within a split-second using the Internet one press of a button any type of search you will make that little piece of metal that computer has access to get information through the internet and information I felt like I'm this little entity being connected to the main mother source of information I can't even say internet but the main source of information and as if endless amounts of information is being downloaded to me simultaneously kind of like standing underneath Niagara Falls and just the water just washing me down kind of like taking a cup and putting it under Niagara Falls and the just the water just falls down that feeling of the information being downloaded to me was the biggest pleasure I ever felt there's no there's no words to describe the type of the pleasure but it was beyond pleasure there's no pleasure in this world from any type of anything that's even closer to this the pleasure was beyond words beyond understanding any type of pleasure in this world is very very limited limited very short an hour half an hour a few seconds maybe a day this pleasure was like eternal pleasure and the pleasure was the information that was downloaded it's like as if all the secrets of the universe was downloaded to me and kinda to give another example going back to that same movie The Matrix there's a part that they put him to sleep and they download to him some information for about five seconds and when he wakes up he says I know kung fu like within eight seconds they downloaded the whole program and martial arts that it takes you fifty years to master he knew that within a split second it's like every type of information all the secrets of the universe everything was in the in the in my hands I saw everything I just felt everything I everything was just clear like as if I'm sitting on the top of the world and I see beyond this world best secrets there's really not a lot of words to describe I remember a lot of what I saw and I don't go into details in this movie what I saw is just true much you can find answers to that on the blog but I have to stress that the feeling was a beyond pleasure beyond that there's no words to explain the pleasure that I was that I felt because of that it says in the in the Talmud that the souls of the righteous people who sits in heaven in GaN Eden they pleasure the the glory of Hashem of God they don't see God necessarily they just sit in heaven and the glory the shine of the glory of God they just sit and and enjoy that and that pleasure is understanding the wisdom of God their understanding the wisdom of God gives the soul of the righteous people tremendous pleasure that's what it says in the Talmud and this is what it was I was able to see God's wisdom and derive non-normal pleasure from it there's no words to describe that pleasure and when I get a lot of the question but what did you see what do you mean you saw God's wisdom what are the secrets of the universe there's no there's no really words to put it in it's just there's no words to put it in it's just understanding something that is beyond what our mind can understand our mind is limit and this is limitless something limited cannot understand something limits limitless and as this whole process of the downloaded downloading on there over the information first of all nothing nothing stayed I wasn't able I didn't have the ability to to hold it I didn't have the ability to to to sustain it I just it just washed me I didn't have the vessel to actually hold that information and as it was going as pleasure pleasurable as it was there was also a tremendous strong feeling of the opposite of pleasure that I can't hold it that I can't sustain it that I can't grasp it and keep it it says in many sources that our acts in this world creates that spiritual vessel that when our soul leaves the body it has the tools to actually hold that godly light to hold that godly revelation to be able to hold that godly wisdom I wasn't able to hold it I was able to see it I was able to enjoy it but I wasn't able to hold it so simultaneously was as a tremendous feel of pleasure and at the same time this very strong feeling of the opposite of pleasure I don't really know how to define it but it wasn't wasn't really sorrow was just a feeling of that I can keep it almost like taking a little kid to a to a toy store and letting him run there and at the end of the day tell him okay now we have to go home you can't keep any of the toys have to leave all the toys here now it's time to go home at this point some kind of a line of communication started and it's like as if God is telling me why even the riving calling me like what are you bothering me about why are you even screaming for help and from this point it was like everything changed I woke up in this huge domain completely dark and I'm standing in the middle of the domain completely naked of course naked in a spiritual way not clothes I didn't come with clothes up there and all the souls of the Jews are standing around me as one unit and in front of me standing a whole group of prosecutors and judges like I find myself in a courtroom and that feeling of the nakedness first of all the embarrassment there's no words to describe the embarrassment this is not a regular embarrassment that you slip on the street and you embarrassed a little bit or somebody finds out that you said something about them and you're a little bit embarrassed this was like beyond words embarrassment the feeling of nakedness was it says in the Mishnah that when a person does a mitzvah in this world when a person does a good deed he kind of creates a garment around him and when a person does the opposite of a good deed he he creates a blemish on that garment kind of a stain but at least he still has the garment I didn't have any garments I didn't have any good deeds I didn't have any mitzvahs I didn't have anything I came up there completely naked it says in the Talmud that when a soul comes up to the heavens all the rest of the souls can read every little thing that that's all did they see everything on the one in the air that's that feeling of nakedness like everything was opened there was no two sides there was just one side for it and the feeling of the embarrassment and the shame there's no words to it an embarrassment was not only in front of God was it mainly in front of all the Jews it's like I get that question a lot what do you mean all the Jews were around you all the souls of the Jews exactly like the time when the Torah was giving on Mount Sinai all the souls were there I felt all the souls around me and I get that question a lot but but I'm alive my soul is down here so yes for the people who are down in this world a little piece of their soul is down in this world most part of the soul is still up there so all the souls were around me as one unit and I'm basically being approached by the judges telling me okay what's your case you know you have here a bunch of prosecutors saying a whole bunch of things about you what do you have to say it says in the mission of that when a person creates when a person makes does a good deed a mitzvah he creates himself a difference attorney and when a person does the opposite of a good deed the opposite of a mitzvah a sin he creates himself a prosecutor I just had prosecutors I had a bunch of prosecutors there barely any any defense attorneys and before they even give you the chance of even talking not that they even had a what to say but they show me my whole life from beginning till that point and it's not shown on this big screen TV like as if I live my life again you know how people say oh my whole life flashed in front of my eyes yes I lived my life again every little second of my life I relived it but this time it was completely different this time I wasn't the actor in the movie this time I was outside of the movie seeing everything and every little thing that I did was pointed out here is tall here you told a lie here you did this here you did that here you thought these bad things about that guy here you talked bad about this person every little sin that I did was pointed out there wasn't any a lot this wasn't a lot of good things that was able to be pointed out maybe some other people have good things I didn't have anything good maybe here and there maybe a small good deed it was so small so minimum there was barely nothing but every little bad thing that I did was pointed out as it was pointed out the feeling of the shame of the embarrassment there's no words to describe the embarrassment how I felt because I felt like everybody around me our righteous and I'm the big wicked man that basically messed it up for everybody I'm the one who messed it up for everybody for millions of souls I'm the one there's no words to describe the embarrassment and I don't know even know where to bury myself it was so embarrassing and when I say everything was pointed out not only that I saw the actual act that they said hear your soul I saw the spiritual blemish that I created with that sin to really put it in words it's very very hard and very long but to kind of explain it every act that we do we don't realize that every act that we do in this world creates a spiritual blemish in higher worlds this world is like a reflection of the world above and everything that we do here echoes up there so every sin that we do recreate a blemish a spiritual blemish that the entire universe gets affected by that and those blemishes was point more pointed out the fact that I stole from that person something okay so he suffered from it know everybody suffered because the spiritual blemish was created a void was taken from the from the perfection of the creation the peace was taken out every sin creates this huge blemish and all these blemishes were shown to me anyways I didn't have what to say I didn't have any any defense I'm a regular person can maybe you know have an argument okay maybe some of the time he wasn't so good some of the time it was good in a normal case you know they take the good deeds to take the bad deeds they kind of wait and you know they see what what way is better what weighs more I didn't have any I didn't have any good deeds I up here and there may be a few good things I didn't even have anything going for me and besides the tremendous shame and embarrassment it's like I feel that I also let down God it's like almost like you know a young kid that his parents are going on a vacation and they tell him we're going for two or three weeks you have to take you're the oldest you have to take care of your brothers and sisters you have to go to school you have to make your homework you can't have parties in the house you can take the car they give him a whole list of to do and what not to do they come back after 2 3 weeks from the vacation everything that they told him to do he didn't do everything he told they told him not to do he did theirs they're so upset at him that you know they don't hate him they're just so upset that they he disappointed them that's how I felt I felt I was sent down to this world with a whole list of things to do and a whole list of things not to do and I messed it all up I just messed everything up so my mind my feelings were you know embarrassment in front of the whole the whole them souls of the Jews but also in front of God and I'm saying embarrassment and shame that doesn't it doesn't really emphasize the feeling it was magnified it was there's no really words to describe the embarrassment it's like standing in front of thousands of people and you're the one who's guilty and everybody's looking at you like you're the worst person in the world anyways I didn't have anything to say for my defense it was just a lost case so at that point they kind of gave me two options first option was going back to that black thing that brought me there and they told me he'll he already take care of you he'll take you where you're supposed to go which was a pretty obvious where where it will take me and that then that wasn't an option the other option is you go back down to this world but this time there's no other chances this time you cannot come back and say I didn't know you didn't tell me I wasn't prepared this is your last chance coming back down to this world and at that point they showed me like my whole life forward from that point on till the end and they said the first thing you need to do is you need to behave like a like a religious Jew like I do supposed to behave the way that the Bible instructs the jury to live that's how you have to live and I saw like myself with a long beard and the whole look they had the whole thing I saw my whole life forward and about that you have a lot of big debt to cover all those years that you weren't behaving like how are you supposed to you have to pay the debt it's not just going to be erased you have to fix all the blemishes that you did that's the second thing the third thing you also have to say to whoever you meet what you saw what you remember obviously there wasn't a obviously there wasn't the option of thinking okay maybe let me think about it for one day was August which one I'm choosing but they warned me this time there's no there's no second chances you cannot come back and tell us oh I didn't know you didn't tell me I wasn't prepared this time you know everything and they actually literally showed me my whole life forward every little detail of my life was shown every little part and the main thing that I remember is how I looked like a religious Jew like you saw the picture how it started for me it was like a completely different world and I saw the vision how I look with a long beard and the whole life and and everything the whole thing no discounts you cannot say this I won they said no once I'll do this I'm not going to do that no this time the whole thing and remember and it was echoing as a warning last chance you can't mess up next time you come up that's it no other chances so obviously you know I didn't need a time to think about the deal was like where am i signing where do I sign I just just get me out of here and I'm saying it in a funny way but it wasn't so funny it was very scary to think that the other option is not coming back the other option of going to wear that thing that brought me there that wasn't an option that was maybe I didn't stress it out much during the the part before there wasn't an option of even thinking that I need to go back there anything that I needed to do just not to go back there because I even know how worse it will get if it were if I would have gone back there so at that point there wasn't there wasn't even an option I knew I'm true what I'm choosing and I was like where do I sign just just tell me where that's it the deal the deals done and that's like I felt like as if I'm shaking my hands closing the deal and and all the parts of the deal was you know they gave me all the condition all the terms and conditions everything what you're supposed to do what you're not supposed to do every little detail was handed over that way I can't there's no that there's no second chances and the second I signed the deal my eyes opened up in the cab and the first thing that I do is I kind of wake up and the girls screaming and the cab driver is screaming and the whole mess in the car and of course I'm like completely you know not connected to the world I just landed from heaven and she's screaming in the cab driver screaming and there's a whole mess and I'm and she's screaming you're dead it can't be you're dead I'm like what are you talking about I just passed out nothing happened I yeah you know and things that I didn't remember anything I was like really out of it and I don't remember I didn't remember anything I just remember it's like something like something very very strange happened and I keep I kept mumbling something took me something took me and she was screaming you're dead I can't be your dad you can you can just imagine the mess that was in the cab and but I felt something like extremely extremely strong happened I didn't know what I didn't remember anything not even one detail and obviously the cabers on its way to the hospital and I was like nothing happened you know I passed out everything is okay you know fine I don't need to go to hospital you know that was like that's all I need now to come to hospital with drugs in my body you know is it's not gonna end up nice let's just go home nothing happened I'm fine I just passed out everything's okay and I felt like I need to do like something something religious like I felt that I had to like make a phone call home that I'm safe I didn't know what I didn't know what to do and at the time I had a friend who was started becoming religious and he every time he saw me he kept trying to put the filling on me it was a comment put filling I was like no no just leave me alone leave me alone I don't want to do it feeling is like a religious article that men use to pray every day so we get home at 6:00 in the morning it's a Saturday and I call him up and I tell him it sick he has to come here right now and have to put fill in and they say what you out of your mind like imagine the picture how I looked calling my friend at 6:00 in the morning and telling him you need to come right now I need to put fill in after half a year that he's running after me to put fill in he's like you can't put fill in on Saturday I'm like the top don't be technical with me right now you know for half a year you're running after me just come right now I need to put filling he's like you can't put films on Saturday you only put it on weekdays I'm like what are you being technical with me right now it's like take me so to a synagogue or something yeah I need to do something he's like are you okay I don't mind what's wrong with you just imagine the scenery how I looked and and the stage in life and me calling him and telling him you need to take me to a synagogue I felt like I need to do something I didn't know now I didn't remember nothing from what happened so he told me you know what tonight is Seder night it's let us say them it's the night we celebrate Passover told him Oh that sounds very religious I'll come tonight where do I have to go he gave me the address he told me what I need to do I told him perfect I'll see you there anyways the girl tells me you are dead I knew you would I know you were dead you were dead you weren't breathing you weren't moving you're you're dead at the time you know a few months before that we had a friend who died she's like I knew I knew I knew it you're dead it can't be I was like what are you talking about him alive I just passed out nothing happened when you're out of your mind our Hogan it how can it be and I didn't remember even one detail nothing I read I felt something very strong happened something that completely shocked me I didn't know what it was but I was I just like I came back a total different person for about two weeks I was like you know a little bit sick and a little bit out of it and kind of trying to figure out what what were what happened and after about two weeks I'm lying one night in bed and I'm about to fall asleep and suddenly all that I just said all the whole experience everything comes back the whole thing every little detail I just jump out of bed and everything I just remember it like as if it happened that second the first thing that I do is I wake up the girl and I tell her tell me did this and this ever happen to you in your past and did this and this ever happened to you and she looks at me and she's like I knew it here we're dead you out of your body you were dead and it didn't it didn't make sense I was a normal person things like this don't happen I was like it can't be on the other hand I remembered every little detail to a point and besides that I knew every little detail that I saw about the girl I remembered everything I knew details on her from when she was a kid every little thing that I saw I remembered it I still remember it so clear I told her things that happened to her in a childhood is that there was no chance that I would be able to even figure out things names and dates and times and scenes and and I couldn't accept it in my in my right mind I was a normal person things like this don't happen things you know a normal person does not go somewhere and things happen what I remember but it I went through it I remembered everything I remembered up until today like as if it was yesterday and it was it was very hard for me to accept and I didn't know what who to tell it to said if I'm going to tell it to somebody they'll think I'm completely nuts the linkster turned me on the spot they'll be like you you lost it you're completely mad and I said if I tell it to the religious people maybe I'll go to some rabbi I thought the rabbi's will think I'm nuts I was like I didn't I don't know who to tell it to in one way I was kind of like saying it it can't be it how can something like this be it's not normal in my normal mind it could not be but I on the other hand I like has it just as if it just as if it just happened anyways I didn't know what to do I decided to leave New York I lived in New York ten at a time and I decided to leave New York and go far away to let it sit down very very quickly the whole outlook change the long hair became short all the piercings came out and the thing is that the first change I was a completely different person before the experience I was like rough and rude and mean and anything negative that you can think of that's how I was and suddenly I was this nice calm polite courteous speaking soft before that every second word that came out of my mouth was a curse that suddenly I would like speak nice everybody was like are you okay you something's wrong with you and and I and I was a completely different person anyways I packed my bags my friend Itzik helped me by filling and and he gave me the basics you know you're not allowed to eat meat and dairy like I was like I don't even know how I'm starting where am i starting I I didn't I didn't even tell him what happened I didn't I was afraid to tell it to anyone I was like anyone that I'm going to tell this story will completely think I lost it so I'm just going to go far away now and I'll figure it out so I went far away to Chicago and I figured out you know the minimal things that I can do to suddenly change my life so the first thing I did was I knew about it and I it was easy I stopped eating meat and dairy you know it's pretty easy to to do even though the first few months you know I kept ordering cheeseburgers and forgetting about it but in the beginning that was easy stop you know not eating dead meat and dairy and and not eating you know forbidden meat like the stern animals that were not allowed to eat so that was easy to stop and I started putting fill in and yeah and that's it and I went far away to Chicago by myself and I was there for about a year and a half a little bit less than a year and a half and the whole year and a half that I was there God was walking with me step after step after step assuring me that every little thing is true everything that happened is right I would have every night I couldn't sleep because I had all my memories running and remembering everything and remembering all that you know the bad things and remembering all the good things and I had to let it out but I was like if I'm going to tell somebody they'll think I'm completely insane I couldn't even tell it to my family I didn't tell it to anyone but it was so real that I knew that I'm under the deal I have to start get going I have to get with the program and to suddenly change your life completely when you're 27 years old it's impossible it's not impossible obviously it was done but it for me it looked like a mountain how can I do it how can I be religious how can I not do things how am I not going to go out on the beach and have fun with girls I'm not gonna see movies I'm not gonna not gonna do this I'm not gonna do that you know the religion is so restricting it I I was bouncing backwards and forth I was like it's impossible I can't do it but inside of me I knew I saw the truth I saw the real thing I saw everything in such a way that it was like not to do it it's insane it's like when I'm looking to dead people who are not religious I'm like how can they not do it how can they not serve God how can they not do mitzvahs how can they not study Torah and it was very hard the first year and a half was was very hard I have some crazy and funny stories you know at the video can be so long I have it in short videos on the blog you can check it out but I have the funniest stories and amazing miracles that have the whole year God was walking with me holding my hand and assuring me yes don't worry you're normal everything's fine just do it just do it and and the whole year was just so hard like I'll give you one example when when you go out of the bathroom or when you wake up in the morning or when you touch certain things like shoes you have to wash your hands but more of a spiritual ritual you take like a certain cup and you wash your hands three times so I somehow picked it up and I saw in a book that it says it when you leave the bathroom you have to do that spiritual wash and you you wash your hands one time on your iPad one time on the left hand so for three times and says turn prayer I was like that sounds pretty easy I'll do that so I started doing it and one day my friend the famous friend eats it came and visit me and he saw that special cup and he's like oh I see that you you know washing your hands told him yeah every time I come out of the bathroom I wash my hands I say the prayer you know I'm very religious so he says you know that the Orthodox people they sleep with such a thing next to their bed and when they wake up in the morning before they even put their feet out on the ground they wash their hands I was like what that's insane those crazy Orthodox people I'm never going to do that such a little thing it looked to me like like completely insanity it was just how my life was so far away from religion and every little thing was like like a mountain it didn't seem like like like attempt seemed like insanity and the whole year I was just I needed that year to to transform from one stage of reality to transform it to a completely different stage of different completely different reality a reality of serving God in the way that God wants us to serve Him so that year was full of full of fun I remember like I had to start keeping Shabbos you know Jew is supposed to rest on the seventh day on Shabbat and there's that whole list of things that you're not allowed to do and things that you're supposed to do it's a whole big thing it's the biggest thing in Judaism and I was like how do I start keeping Chaves you know there's so much to do so I remembered many many years before that I had a relative that became religious and he told me look you're not allowed to light fire on Shabbos and you're not allowed to extinguish fire so I was I was a very heavy smoker very heavy smoker you should actually check on the blog the movie about how I quit smoking that's a completely amazing miracle so he told me you're not allowed to extinguish fire on Shabbos on Shabbat so when you smoke at least don't extinguish the cigarette so I was like you know what that's what I'm going to do I'm not going to turn the cigarette out and I'm going to be keeping Shabbos and every time I would forget and turn the cigarette out of like oh yeah what did I do and now that I located it it's a joke it's funny but for me then not to do one thing in regards to the Shabbos was like a mountain everything looked impossible to make a long story short the whole period of that year is extremely interesting I have a lot of amazing stories you can check on the blog look for it but at some point it was time to to get busy that's it the periods the time has come that I had to get into the I knew that's it I'm under a deal it's time to to do the deal with the divine providence I somehow found myself back in New York which is a completely amazing story in it is as it is and nothing happens by chance by divine providence I met this rabbi and amazing amazing man that was a tremendous big influence on me when I came to New York and I went to one of his classes which was the first time I ever attended a class about Dora and I was mesmerised I was beyond amazed so started attending his classes and after about a month I felt close enough to him and I felt that he's enough out there to accept what I have to say he was in his classes he was talking about different worlds and souls and and all sorts of stuff and I was like wow that's you know I could relate to it he would teach late at night in his house in his house Kabbalah and Zohar and I was like wow I know what he's talking about I can relate so I decided I'm going to tell him about the story and I sat him down and I told him look something happened to me about a year and a half ago and I never I didn't tell it to anyone and I feel you're the first one and I think you should hear it because I need to know you know what to do and I told him the whole story from beginning to end with all the details you didn't that you didn't even hear and he looks at me at the end and he tells me are you crazy No thank God he even thinks I'm crazy and I was like I don't know I don't know it's like are you crazy such a miracle happen to you and you're not telling it to anyone and you're not doing anything about it you are insane you are insane you have to go right now and and you have to change your life and from that point on it was about three months that everything changed I was with a long beard the black suit the black hat full board in yeshiva the whole thing the whole nine yards I was ready at that point I was ready to take the leap I was ready to make the jump it took a year and a half to prepare but I was ready to make the change and very fast I was already a new Shiva I was I started to study I started to follow everything and in the first few months every couple classes the rabbi would talk or teach about a certain concept and I would be like I that I saw that I remember that I know I know about that I knew things out read things and explore and find out that everything that I saw is backed up by dozens of books that we have here whether it's a citizen fee or Talmud on Mishnah and everything that I saw started to come into pieces and make sense and then it was this time to start telling it to people and you can just imagine how I felt to sit in front of somebody and tell him what I just told you so the first person I told him you know it didn't sound as good as this because I find all the right words how to describe it and and even up until today I don't have the right words to really describe it and the person was amazed and and and I saw good feedback then I started you know start telling it to more people and more people and then making groups of course there were people didn't accept it people told me you're completely out of your mind you were dreaming you were hallucinating you're this you're that the biggest thing ever you know the biggest objection I ever got and the most does I never got it was I you really want the drugs real ozonated can happen it did happen you're on drugs you're hallucinating forget about it and the thing is that what you know when you hear something that's that's not so strong when you see something you're a believer so what I saw what I experienced I can transfer it to anyone nobody can convince me difference I know what I saw and I know where I was and I know I went through I can't convince anyone what I saw but one thing that that was that is my answer is that I knew every detail about that girl to a point that there's no there's no way I could guess it oh no way that by dating a girl for a year you can know certain details to a point that I like I said I knew every detail about her so that point I started talking to people and telling them sharing the story and and I saw the impact I saw the influence how it changes people lives are people people are are thirsty to hear it people want to hear people want the assurance that what they feel and what they what they think is true and I want people who don't even think that they changes everything so then point on my whole life changed completely and within less than a year from that point I was already married with a kid with a very long beard fully fully religious the whole thing the whole nine yards the whole deal and there's so much more details and there's so much more about it I was trying to put the whole thing in in the shortest version possible but there's many more details I urge you to go to the blog and see all the extra videos that are on there feel free any question you have just use the contact form write your question I'll try to answer all the questions there's a lot of details that I didn't stop on a lot of details that explain everything there's a lot of things that after that that it's just very hard to put it put it in a short video when I speak in public audiences sometimes I speak for four or five hours so I urge you to go and check out the rest of the videos and and feel free to contact me I'll try my best to answer any question and you always welcome to invite me to private audiences or anywhere like Lad LIGO and does there's a lot more to it so stay tuned check out the rest of the stuff because it's much more amazing than what I had to to to squeeze it in the in a short video and there's just one last thing that I always like leaving with I'm not just telling you the story for you to have an idea and say oh great the guy you know he went way what he went through it's great and just continue with a life like nothing happened there's a reason why I tell you that when I was up there in the hole so all the souls of the Jews were around me I saw a lot of things I saw a lot of things that I didn't mention in the video but once a thing that I saw is what it means that all the Jews have to be united I saw the the blemish I saw what we're missing by not being United and the way I see it you can take it how how you want but the way I see it and I put it in kind of a metaphor imagine this perfect perfect perfect ball of light and that light is everything the light is the life of the universe everything is in that light and we as Jews we're giving the privilege of protecting that light holding that light together that light gives the whole universe its essence everything and our job as the Jews we were chosen to sustain to keep that light to guard it and the way we guard it is by covering that light completely and when one Jew that's the opposite of the will of God does a sin he creates a hole in that in that shell and the light starts going out so you would say ok one Jew makes one hole okay a little bit of light goes out but then another one does a hole and then another one does a hole and then another one doesn't keep Torah mitzvahs and another one does a certain sin and before we know it instead of having a hole turn around the light that protects it it looks like a strainer just bunch of holes and all the light is just going out so one may say oh you know I'm good in what I'm doing and I'm a good Jew and I'm a good person and they're you know I'm you know I'm fine I'm not hurting anyone yeah it's good but it's it's not what we should do each one of us has his place in the world each one of us has it's things that he needs to do and every deed that we do affects the whole world every deed every action that we do negative or positive affect the entire universe that's the power we have we have the power to completely change and affect the universe so I have one thing that I like ending my my experience with I didn't come here just to I didn't put this video just to share you the experience I came to sell you something yes I'm a sales person I came to sell you life insurance yes life insurance here the thought of that I sell life insurance but not the type of life insurance in this world life insurance for the other world you know a few months ago my brother-in-law very young man 40 years old went out for a run got a heart attack and died on the spot he left my sister widowed with three young kids orphaned very healthy man never had a heart disease nothing just one second and he was out he had life insurance a physical life insurance but didn't have a spiritual life insurance he probably went up there the way I went up there empty naked nothing no mitzvahs no good deeds no garments protecting me no defense attorneys protecting me nothing I came empty dirty with nothing the reason why I was back I can't even think of it I don't want to think what was the merit that decide to send me back here something maybe a merit from a relative or I don't know the fact was that I'm one of thousands if not tens of thousands if not hundreds of thousands that get that married to come back and change most people don't and most people if they don't prepare themselves in this life they come up to the next world with with nothing with nothing to protect them with nothing to be on their side now it is not really words to describe it but I can assure you it's not an easy ride it's not so fun to come to the end points with empty hands with nothing in your hands so the same thing the thing in the same way that a person in this life he cares about his loved ones he purchases the life insurance you a few dollars a month he says okay if something happens it's a better insurance if something happens my loved ones will be taken care of my wife my kids why don't you do a spiritual life insurance don't you care about what's going to happen about when you leave this world when you leave this world you're not taking nothing with you nothing but your good deeds you're not taking money you're not taking nothing you can only take your good deeds and in the end the toriel that you studied that's it so the question is how do you preparing yourself to get to the other side are you preparing yourself at all are you even thinking of preparing yourself a person suddenly just dies people don't just prepare for the day of their death people don't just you know get a warning hey in two weeks you're going to die so maybe you should pack your things there's no there's no way sign you just go so what I sell is life insurance spiritual life insurance after life insurance the kind of insurance that will insure you that when you get to the other side at least you come with something to make a complete change from being completely not religious and jumping to the other side and becoming ultra-orthodox you know that's not it's not for everybody it's not the easiest thing trust me it's a it's a everyday battle but something I came with nothing I didn't even have one good deed that I did consistently something small give charity every day a few pennies every day give a smile to somebody help somebody do something something small that's something smoking can can win an entire universe when you're standing in front of those those judges everything is just wait sometimes a small deed is worth so much some small deed that you do in this world can change completely how you being judged there's so many little things that you can just do just give a smile to another person be nicer to your wife be nicer to your kids be nicer to another person be honest work straight there's so many little things that you don't have to go out of your way just to just to just change something of course I will encourage you to do much more than that much much more I can tell you one thing every little thing that you do it's worth anything but Italy something small so we'll just leave you with one thing whatever you do in this world echoes in eternity ah Oh yeah no your your oh boy if you knew when you are going to die would you change the way of your life what would you do say goodbye to your loved ones pay your debts make sure you leave nothing open behind how would you set the way before you leave would you even care what is left behind or should I ask do you care what is waiting for you oh yeah boy you ever stop to think what is your life about what am I doing here can I do better do you know what a small thing in this world can do a small bits for a good deed well if you would have any idea what it does for you and the rest of the universe you would only run after that you it's time for you to think what is your life of it just living your life day after day running after nothing that is the way you are here for you're here to do a change you're here to serve God you are here on a mission it says in the mission and bill gave us in the second chapter the Altima lecture finish named Chimel Oh Tiffany don't say I will do it when I get there because you might not get there boy season Tania hi Yamla so Tom today is the time to do it tomorrow today there you can do the change now I'm not saying it's easy I'm not saying to go crazy but something one small deed can make a huge difference Oh come Oh Oh oh boy boy Oh


  1. I truly want to thank you for this mind blowing, heart altering testimony. May Hashem bless you and may your testimony turn many thousands of hearts back to Him


  3. Loved this video better than other one you did. Much more authentic and less theatrical. Because I am not Jewish, I am researching some of the terms you use which has opened my eyes & mind. Though I prefer to mitzvah through my current religious practices. We are all loved by the same creator, and should love each other as He does us–with respect. Thank you for sharing your experience and I have learned from it. Peace

  4. I am going through breast cancersurgeries and treatments and God has led me to this man’s videos and now I see him. I recognized his holiness, but now I know his personal conversion experience and what a mighty life story to add to our modern era digital Bibleof life with the living. He was called. And he answered. I will come back to this one. Many times

  5. You stood naked and ashamed because you are not wearing the righteousness of Jesus the Christ. And like you were told, be a good Jew!!!! So why are you still not following Jesus???

    You have been told you will be in darkness if you are not a good Jew! Repent of your sins and turn to your saviour JESUS.
    You have been told, no excuses.

    Matthew 22:11-14New International Version (NIV)

    11 “But when the king came in to see the guests, he noticed a man there who was not wearing wedding clothes. 12 He asked, ‘How did you get in here without wedding clothes, friend?’ The man was speechless.

    13 “Then the king told the attendants, ‘Tie him hand and foot, and throw him outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

    14 “For many are invited, but few are chosen.”

  6. God shows every one who he is. He is shown threw everything. This is this man's testimony of what he heard and saw. It seems his life was changed for the better. I believe him and thank him for his testimony. I hope we can all do better, and one day make it home.

  7. I have found that most nde share a message of love, forgiveness, and repentance. Nice to see his message is simular to others.

  8. "I will pour out on the house of David and on the inhabitants of Jerusalem, the Spirit of grace and of supplication, so that they will look on Me whom they have pierced; and they will mourn for Him, as one mourns for an only son, and they will weep bitterly over Him like the bitter weeping over a firstborn. "In that day there will be great mourning in Jerusalem, like the mourning of Hadadrimmon in the plain of Megiddo.…Zechariah 12:10 -11

  9. This is the problem with religions. We have no proof yet we're supposed to believe. This guy to drugs and probably had a hallucination and or brain issues when people are dying their brain dies as well causing delusions and not to mention this could all be a lie or like i said drug induced then he got scared either way i have no real reason to believe it. Why cant god show a normal sane non drug user himself legitimately why is it always a guy wandering the desert or is dying? Prove it to a rational human prove it to a thinking person not a gullible religious person or a person whos brain is dying

  10. I HD no patience to listen after ten min n I ff to the ten min before end… hmm…. I don't think it is anything great but guess that is his experience…. guess when yr soul leave the body everything spiritual can happen n their guilt at tt moment directs them into a new path to b ready for the next real n definite death beyond return!

  11. I must have to tell you this, though I've watched your other video already about your death experienced. And I feel like God want me to tell you this, (remember, everything has a connection and this is one of them); "believe that Jesus Christ died for our sins so you don't go to hell in the last judgment my friend. Being religious has no promise that it will save us, because we are born sinners from original sins of Adam and Eve. Jesus Christ is Holy and Perfect for Sacrifice; for our sake and for all mankind; it is a Free Gift. Please read the Life of Jesus and His miracles."
    He fasted for forty days and forty nights, (there's a very important reason for it.) Good works/good deeds alone cannot save us. On the other hand we are saved through His Grace my friend. This will lead you to the great details of puzzles. The other Jews' souls were the people who judges, who do not believe in Him, accused Him as a delusional lunatic, and persecuted Him; "oh long before we weren't even born." I hope you get it.
    Find God in His Truth and Holiness by knowing the Undying love of Jesus for us all.
    He is the way, the truth and the life. No man comes to the Father but through the Son Jesus Christ. May God Bless us all…

    Matthew 4:1-11Good News Translation (GNT)

    The Temptation of Jesus
    4 Then the Spirit led Jesus into the desert to be tempted by the devil. 2 After spending forty days and nights without food, Jesus was hungry. 3 Then the devil came to him and said, “If you are God's Son, order these stones to turn into bread.”

    4 But Jesus answered, “The scripture says, ‘Human beings cannot live on bread alone, but need every word that God speaks.’”

    5 Then the devil took Jesus to Jerusalem, the Holy City, set him on the highest point of the Temple, 6 and said to him, “If you are God's Son, throw yourself down, for the scripture says,

    ‘God will give orders to his angels about you;
    they will hold you up with their hands,
    so that not even your feet will be hurt on the stones.’”
    7 Jesus answered, “But the scripture also says, ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’”

    8 Then the devil took Jesus to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world in all their greatness. 9 “All this I will give you,” the devil said, “if you kneel down and worship me.”

    10 Then Jesus answered, “Go away, satan! The scripture says, ‘Worship the Lord your God and serve only Him!’”

    11 Then the devil left Jesus; and angels came and helped him.

    After I've confirmed this by the Holy Spirit; I've weep because I am one of His sheeps, because I believe of the Amazing love for all of us.
    After of course I've watched your testament. satan on the other hand is a deceiver (he can do wonders too, but so what, it is not going to save you my friend) the devil is a father of lies, nothing is truth in him, he is a prince of darkness.

    God sent His own Beloved Son Jesus Christ to redeemed us; Ephesians 1:7New American Standard Bible (NASB)
    7 In [a]Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace…so that everyone who believes in Him may have Eternal life. John 3:1-22

    1 'In all truth I tell you, anyone who does not enter the sheepfold through the gate, but climbs in some other way, is a thief and a bandit.

    2 He who enters through the gate is the shepherd of the flock;

    3 the gatekeeper lets him in, the sheep hear his voice, one by one he calls his own sheep and leads them out.

    4 When he has brought out all those that are his, he goes ahead of them, and the sheep follow because they know his voice.

    5 They will never follow a stranger, but will run away from him because they do not recognise the voice of strangers.'

    6 Jesus told them this parable but they failed to understand what he was saying to them.

    7 So Jesus spoke to them again: In all truth I tell you, I am the gate of the sheepfold.

    8 All who have come before me are thieves and bandits, but the sheep took no notice of them.

    9 I am the gate. Anyone who enters through me will be safe: such a one will go in and out and will find pasture.

    10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I have come so that they may have life and have it to the full.

    11 I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd lays down his life for his sheep.

    12 The hired man, since he is not the shepherd and the sheep do not belong to him, abandons the sheep as soon as he sees a wolf coming, and runs away, and then the wolf attacks and scatters the sheep;

    13 he runs away because he is only a hired man and has no concern for the sheep.

    14 I am the good shepherd; I know my own and my own know me,

    15 just as the Father knows me and I know the Father; and I lay down my life for my sheep.

    16 And there are other sheep I have that are not of this fold, and I must lead these too. They too will listen to my voice, and there will be only one flock, one shepherd.

    17 The Father loves me, because I lay down my life in order to take it up again.

    18 No one takes it from me; I lay it down of my own free will, and as I have power to lay it down, so I have power to take it up again; and this is the command I have received from my Father.

    19 These words caused a fresh division among the Jews.

    20 Many said, 'He is possessed, he is raving; why do you listen to him?'

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    21 Others said, 'These are not the words of a man possessed by a devil: could a devil open the eyes of the blind?'

    22 It was the time of the feast of Dedication in Jerusalem. It was winter,

    23 and Jesus was in the Temple walking up and down in the Portico of Solomon.

    24 The Jews gathered round him and said, 'How much longer are you going to keep us in suspense? If you are the Christ, tell us openly.'

    25 Jesus replied: I have told you, but you do not believe. The works I do in my Father's name are my witness;

    26 but you do not believe, because you are no sheep of mine.

    27 The sheep that belong to me listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me.

    28 I give them eternal life; they will never be lost and no one will ever steal them from my hand.

    29 The Father, for what he has given me, is greater than anyone, and no one can steal anything from the Father's hand.

    30 The Father and I are one.

    31 The Jews fetched stones to stone him,

    32 so Jesus said to them, 'I have shown you many good works from my Father; for which of these are you stoning me?'

    33 The Jews answered him, 'We are stoning you, not for doing a good work, but for blasphemy; though you are only a man, you claim to be God.'

    34 Jesus answered: Is it not written in your Law: I said, you are gods?

    35 So it uses the word 'gods' of those people to whom the word of God was addressed — and scripture cannot be set aside.

    36 Yet to someone whom the Father has consecrated and sent into the world you say, 'You are blaspheming' because I said, 'I am Son of God.'

    37 If I am not doing my Father's work, there is no need to believe me;

    38 but if I am doing it, then even if you refuse to believe in me, at least believe in the work I do; then you will know for certain that the Father is in me and I am in the Father.

    39 They again wanted to arrest him then, but he eluded their clutches.

    40 He went back again to the far side of the Jordan to the district where John had been baptising at first and he stayed there.

    41 Many people who came to him said, 'John gave no signs, but all he said about this man was true';

    42 and many of them believed in him.

    Beware! It's your last chance indeed, make it right my friend, please don't mislead others for disregarding Jesus Christ the Son of God. Jesus Christ is the Savior of the world and the Son of God. He is our Redeemer. The truth that Jesus Christ is the only way by which we can return to live with our Heavenly Father…May God Bless…

  12. But what is the original mistake that causes the other ones? Like lack of self love? What made me so guilty? What drove me to behave badly? What if I made the mistakes all again? And I thought it was a dream? So confused

  13. as he talks about Matrix …" the hero dies and then he gets up again " … does it remind you someone ?
    who is named " the Word od God " ? 😉

  14. He sounds like he's borrowing from real NDE experiences to craft a story whose purpose is to push a particular belief system. I've listened to a handful of Christian "NDE" accounts that do the same thing.

  15. I am so glad I found you. I've been really into Rabbi Mizrachi for 2 years. Totally changed me. Now Shomer Shabbas. are my new favorite online Rabbi. B'H. Thank you for all of your sharing and Lectures. I'll be watching everything. From Memphis,TN. 😇🔯💃


  17. It is great story and as long as it is so Biblical , i am happy God reveal Himself to all ; in fact, makes my own Bible reading all the more lovely, curious, wonderous and graceful experience

  18. What an amazing privilege to hear the story of Alon. Each of us will experience "as we think so we are"  -I found that Life After Death: A Scientific Inquiry, by Ryno Opperman higly insightful and fits in perfectly with Alon and Dr Alexander's experience. Thanks again.

  19. It seems that some people plugging in here, forget that each soul have their personal individual journey. Plus we all stand on a different platform from which we start. In other words, if for the Jewish population there is such a long and complex road to get things wright, for a gentile = non Jew, is a short one, and yet, we all are aiming to the same point, if we aim at all. So, stop pointing fingers who is right and who is wrong, just do your part. We only need to be concern in fulfilling our own personal potential. Mind you, this video is reaching specifically for the "secular" Jews to join, that's all. And for a gentile watching, the message has a different level – no need to go that far. Let it be…

  20. David Sunfellow it says:
    More movies and evidence to the reality of the world to come you can find here Book of unequivocal evidence that the Creator of the world and the real Torah by Eran Ben Ezra " :

  21. That part you said, about being in the presence of Gods wisdom, i can remember that, so wonderful, no words can explain just how wonderful it is, how wise how loving and warm, so far away from this world 

  22. your personal report is changing lives and souls for the better.  You remind me that God is always speaking to everyone of us, at all times.  If i can be attentive, and listen; God helps to guide my thoughts and actions.  

  23. You might read Hebrews 9:27 and Jude 13.  When you said there was a "black" place, this Scripture in the Brit Chadasha came to mind! 

  24. Something is very wrong with Judaism. When Jews have NDE, it seems they are always confronted with a formal court trial. What is that all about? Christ said judge not lest yea be judged. This is one of the worst NDEs I have heard. Really hard to listen to.

  25. Thanks for sharing this. It's important so that people should start thinking why they are on this Earth, and it's not for wealth or useless pleasures

  26. This sounds like a spiritual attack but from within about your own deep regrets and sorrows for your life how it was going. A change had to come for you. Was it God. We will never know until it is revealed. 

  27. Your story is very thought provoking.  If what you share on this video is the essence of your message then I feel sympathy for you- in a sincere and compassionate way.  The bulk of your message focuses on either being chained to the devil or being  converted to the the love of God.  I say converted because you like the word religion.
    Religion teaches: all of us come into the world as sinners.  As you so rightly mention, God has "infinite ways to communicate" to each and every one of us.  From your own testimony you make your past life sound pretty self centered.  We (the viewers) don't know how many times God tried to communicate with you through the years to change your ways. But in God's "infinite ways to communicate" he decided to show you the little devil you were by allowing you meet the little devil you now fear!  Yes, the little devil who had you wrapped in utter fear shrank back in the light of God's love!
     God filled you with wisdom. Wisdom breeds meaning not answers; use your last breath not to spread the fear of evil but the love of God.  

  28. Kol ha kavod al a video, ve toda raba! Shalom mi Yapan! (Ken, ani yode'a she ze nishma bilti tsafui:-))

  29. I love your story and I love the way you explain it. Im so happy you were able to tell it. I hope to see more and btw, I think everyone is going to experience this as their are millions already. God Bless

  30. This amazing story would make a very very special movie…
    Even that I can not relate to the part that jews are seperate/(superior) from all human kind – thank you for sharing this amazing-breathtaking experience

  31. I just wanted to warn people that this mans testamony is leading to worshiping nature and YHWH clearly told us not to worship the creation but the Creator only. It is nice and a beautiful story but the mention of the kabala and connection to nature and God would be contrary to the teachings in the Bible where YHWH told us not to worship anything but HIM. If you want the proof that the Bible is our history and the true word of God, watch" Ron Wyatt banned proof the Bible is real" on youtube. Ron Wyatt has found all the archeological evidence of the events in the Bible. We just have to be careful not to be lead astray. YHWH is the one true God and Yeshua Hamashiach (Jesus) is the Messiah. Yeshua tells us that HE is the only way to the Father YHWH. God bless.

  32. I'm incredibly moved by this testimony. At the end tears ran down my cheeks, and I felt great awe reading the final word "Almighty".
    The all knowingness that Mr. Anava tells about, the knowledge of past and future of any object seen, are powers that can be achieved being in the body. In Hindu and Buddhist tradition, yogi's, sages and saints are said to possess these powers. Also Christian mystics, such as Teresa of Avila, had the knowledge of past and future.
    This testimony corroborates in such a powerful way the experiences of other people and other traditions. It also makes me respect very much the Jewish tradition. Thank you for this testimonial!

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