The Reality of Truth film

There’s a story in the bible about God providing
Manna from Heaven, food to sustain the Israelites while they were wandering in the wilderness. But it never said specifically what it was. What was this Manna from Heaven? When I asked that question, I had no idea
how much my life was about to change. The first miracle that Jesus was reported
to have done was turning water into wine at a wedding. The story goes they ran out of wine and Jesus
put a portion of the Manna into the water that they boiled as tea. He told the waiters to pass it out as wine. So I called up Deepak and I said, “Deepak
I gotta talk to you I go I just found some stuff in the bible that’s not making any sense. I think I found some psychedelics in there,
I think there’s meditation. Like, What do you think?” And he’s quiet on the phone. I was like, “Deepak are you there?” He’s like, “yeah, here did you find this exactly? Send me what you’re talking to me about.” “What do you want to do Deepak, What should
we do about this? Do you want to write something up?” Deepak was like, “this is too important. why don’t we have a conversation about this?” Could part of the religious experience have
to do with plant sacraments? In Deepak’s tradition, the mystery plant Soma
was used to bring people to communion with God. Could it have been that the Hymns of the Rig
Veda were actually sung to this plant, which had no seeds? That had no flowers. That was really mushrooms. There’s a scene in the movie Noah, starring
Russell Crowe, Where he has a dream that he is underwater with animals floating past. He wakes up knowing that God wants him to
do something, but he doesn’t know what. He goes and sits with the Wise Man in the
Cave, played by Anthony Hopkins, who gives him some psychedelic tea. He drinks it and has a detailed vision of
exactly what God wants him to do. First of all, that’s a possibility. Secondly, why does our brain have receptors
to these things? Well, because we are part of this same nature. You know, we are not separate from nature. Science is based on a subject/object split
on a separation that is artificial. Me and the Universe, when in fact, I am also
part of the Universe. So, the same electrical storms that create
thunder and lightning in the sky also create synaptic firings in my brain. Which creates thought. We are part of a wholeness and what religious
experience is is to experience the wholeness. What is enlightenment but being one with the
Source? So, whilst they give people what, I wouldn’t
even call even altered state of consciousness, I wouldn’t call them hallucinations. They allow people to break free of the everyday
hallucination of separation. And to the reality of truth. And whether they did it through wine or manna
or soma Who cares. It doesn’t even make any sense, how can these
ancient plants that connect you to God somehow be taken out? Could these plants be the ancient wisdom we
need for our modern problems? What do we call today everyday reality? Which we thinks is normal. There is war. There is terrorism. There is global warming. There is social injustice. 50% of the world lives on less than$2 a day. The environment is totally screwed up. And we say this is normal. It’s psychotic okay? And it’s psychotic because we have created
it. What do you think it would take to break through
that boundary at this point? I mean, here we are in this 21st century. Let’s have a party. We’ll bring everybody down to Peru and enlighten
them. Put some in the pot and let’s drink it. I’m in. I’m in. Did Deepak Chopra just tell me to go down
to Peru and drink ayahuasca tea (one of the most powerful psychedelics known to man)? Still dazed by what Deepak recommended, I
bumped into our friend Gerry who had generously loaned us his beach house for the interview. I was curious about what he had thought about
what Deepak said. I didn’t realize at the time, but Gerry’s
world was spinning out of control. Despite having sold his company for almost
$100,000,000, Gerry was abusing drugs, drinking a lot of alcohol, his family was in shambles,
and he was basically trying to kill himself slowly. More than I had realized, Deepak’s words were
really sinking in. At this point, you might be wondering who
this Zappy guy is. Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I’d done everything society told me to do. Go to school, get a job, make a bunch of money,
fall in love, start a family. I was living the American dream. I bought for $80,000. A few months later, I sold it for $7,000,000. Here I am staring in my own Super Bowl ad. Life was becoming very surreal. Even though I had it all, my conversation
with Deepak made it clear that there were other experiences that I needed to have. The value that I place on the experience is
more important. So I always felt like I would rather have
a passport full of stamps than a house of a certain type. It occurred to me that like most people, I’ve
been searching for happiness outside of myself. And I was having the realization that I might
never be truly happy unless I went inside my own mind to look for some answers. Albert Einstein famously said, “You can’t
fix a problem with the same consciousness or thinking that got you into the situation.” What this meant to me is that if I wanted
to solve a problem in my life or if we as a society wanted to solve some of the big
problems we have; like violence, eco-destruction, addiction, depression, then we needed to change
our collective consciousness. Could society use some of these ancient techniques
for its modern problems? I was inspired by people that came before
me that seemingly had it all but chose to take the risk of going inside their own minds. These people are what I would call Psychenauts
(sailors of the mind). And I saw that these people were going inside
their minds and exploring inside their minds as a part of what they wound up doing and
I said, “Wow, I have to do that.” Put some in the pot and drink it. I figured that before it got too extreme and
sat with a Shaman, I should go out and talk to some of Deepak’s friends about our so called
reality. If you only identify with the realm of 3 dimensions;
if you only identify with the realm of the body; if you only identify with the mortal
circumstance, the mortal experience; then to that extent you are at the effect of those
circumstances. Faith is standing on the conviction, standing
on the knowledge of the conviction. There’s something way bigger going on here. What we see is only a small portion of the
total reality. See, we have 3 states: waking, dreaming, and
sleeping. But beyond that, there is a state where there
is neither of these 3. But there is a restful alertness that dawns
deep within. There is nowhere where we escape from being
energy. So we are always energy. What we see as it looks physical material
is actually the reflection of light (photons of light) that hit our energy and bounce back
reflecting light. But we’re reflecting it as a forcefield of
energy. If we can stand in the unreal world, the ultimate
unreal that appears real, that seems limited by the laws of time and space, and yet have
faith in the realm beyond, that literally evokes the realm into being. It seemed like what everyone was saying is,
“Reality is just a concept.” I needed to have the direct experience of
going inside. Could ancient wisdom included plants and meditation? I was excited to learn that a lot of celebrities
(people like Jerry Seinfeld, Martin Scorsese) have been doing meditation for a long time. And recently people like Oprah Winfrey and
Dr. Oz, and Katey Perry had taken up the meditation, and it seemed to be making them more creative. I wanted to see if some of this ancient wisdom
could tap into my creativity. In the 1960’s, a funny little man named Maharishi
Yogi came out of the Himalayas and into the United States, and he wound up teaching his
transcendental meditation to the Beatles. And the rest is history. Today, there are more than 7 million people
worldwide that are doing transcendental meditation. What I like about TM technique is that there
is no dogma attached to it. It’s really a simple technique of repeating
a mantra to yourself which causes you to transcend into your quieted mind to subtler and subtler
states of consciousness. Until you reach a place called universal consciousness. An endless field of energy that connects all
of us where all knowledge is contained, and where everything is manifested from. When the Maharishi passed away in 2007 he
put John Hagelin in charge. As a quantum physicist, he had successfully
used quantum theory to support Maharishi’s model of creative intelligence being at the
center of all creation. Waking consciousness is all about being aware
of something. This, that, and the other concept, that person. Transcending is leaving all of that behind
to isolate that experience itself. It’s blissful. It’s not the end of the story. 10 – 20 minutes of that is enough. The idea is to come back into activity, and
increasingly integrate and stabilize the experience of inner reality experience along with outer
reality. It really gets to be interesting and fun. The mind has 2 aspects to it. It’s the brain which is very concrete you
can measure it, you can touch it. But it’s interacting with this field of consciousness,
and what they come together is our individual self our individual personality. And that’s what most people think they are. I’m 5’1″. I have this level of education. I am this part in society. I have this amount of money.But that is not
fundamentally who you are. And to know that, you need to have the experience
of that. That’s where meditation experience comes in. What excited me about this was that if we
wanted to change global consciousness, we only needed a critical mass of people tapped
in. When I found in the bible verses that said,
“be still, and know that I am God, the kingdom of heaven is within;” that’s what the meditators
say. It’s so obvious, it’s right there. The bible is saying meditate. These days, religious affiliation is shrinking. I needed to go speak to some of the religious
leaders and top scholars of our time about whether meditation was once part of religion. When it comes to religious leaders, there’s
no one more high profile than Joel Ostein. I wanted to ask Joel what he thought the manna
from heaven was. I always thought it was like bread, you know,
like a mushroom. That’s what I heard. That’s what I heard. I’d like it if it was mushrooms. Sustain them and… Wow, I did not expect that. Bible descriptions from Moses and Jesus sound
more like mushrooms than bread. In fact, every other miracle that Jesus is
reported to have done was after they drank the mushroom tea. St. Mark’s basilica: here’s all the disciples,
here’s Jesus, with giant mushrooms behind him. You’ve got Jesus over here with these giant
mushrooms behind him. Let me see. Jesus with the giant mushrooms behind him. (laughing) I wanted to talk to some people
that had been there and done that. I’ve probably had as much psychedelics as
anyone alive. When you fall away for a minute, something
happens. That’s actually the beginning, and now you
have to relearn the world just like you were a baby. What I found that makes ayahuasca very special
#1 is it’s the only mind altering substance that needs more than one substance. And the other fact that is interesting is
that both of these substances; the MAO which is Harmalol or Tetrahydro harmalol… or the
DMT. Both of these substances are produced in every
mammalian nervous system. So they are substances that our body already
produces. Filmmaker Foster Gamble’s documentary Thrive
shattered many of the myths that we’ve been present by regular society that keep us slaves
to our so called reality. So it seems to be a natural inclination to
alter our consciousness somewhat, and I think that one of the reasons for that is when we
alter our consciousness, we can see our daily consciousness in a new way. It shifts, it tends to raise our consciousness. And to me, that’s the point. If we can use substances (whether it’s broccoli
or ayahuasca or c# major) to give us a glimpse of what’s possible for human beings, and specifically,
what’s next for me. What am I ready for. When my consciousness separated from my body,
it changed the paradigm entirely. I realized, “aha” there’s something more than
this meat vehicle that we have. And that one realization set me off writing
all night furiously until the dawn, and it just re-evaluated my whole philosophy. From that point on, I’ve been on a journey
of experiential spirituality (finding the answers myself). and the plants have been
the greatest teachers on that quest. Many times there’s a huge benefit from one
experience because it really gets to the core of what’s been happening. So it’s almost like, you know, ten years of
therapy in seven hours. Kundalini yoga icon Gurmukh teaches many celebrities
to journey inside using kundalini technique. She had her own experience with mind-altering
energies. I do not regret anything I’ve ever done. People say, “I did drugs.” I say, “So what? It got you here. Forget it.” I have met other people that I wish they had
because I feel they can’t go through the barrier. They can’t go into that 6th dimension. However you want to look at it, it’s going
to be the unknown, and you have a choice fear or faith. Faith that you’re going to come out alright
and that the lessons are going to be valuable and that the medicine will guide you…or
fear. Fear that something else is going to happen. It’s going to be the unknown either way. So you might as well choose faith. There are times in life where through different
means (and God works in mysterious ways), we’re shown the mountain top. It’s like through grace. It’s like that hand of God lifts us up and
shows us the mountain. I owe a definite debt of gratitude to my experience
with various substances. I can’t endorse it unless you’re at a certain
space, in a certain environment, with certain true healers because it can run havok (just
like LSD did). They are powerful, transformational tools,
and have to be respected. If you approach them with enough humility
and respect, I tend to believe that you will be fine with them. People are afraid that when they go down there
and do these medicines, they’re going to lose the things that they love the most about themselves. Just this common fear. You get someone who loves their career, “What
if I go down and it tells me I want to be a yoga instructor.” I’m like, ‘It’s not going to do that, man. And if it does, you’re going to be a lot happier
about the fact that it did.” There’s an opportunity to use psychotropic
drugs which will open up that mind and show you who you really are. I’m fascinated by it. I’m interested in it. I believe it will have real utility somewhere. It’s just too soon for me as somebody who’s
trained a certain way. Do no harm, help, you know, really be clear
about what you’re doing. We’re not clear yet. Whatever it takes. Whether you do the drug or whether you do
the meditation exercises, or whatever…I don’t really care. There’s no doubt in my mind that the first
formal use for hallucinogens will be for end of life because it’s clear what I’m reading
and seeing in the research, it improves our ability to be connected with something and
feel okay about the dying process. And God knows we need help with that in this
country. The traditional psychological model of the
traditional medical model, it usually takes years and years and years of therapy, and
years of intervention working with a team of experts even to get just a little progress
in someone’s life. What I’ve seen, and the analogy that I give
is it’s ten to twenty years of psychotherapy in just one to two plant medicine sessions. There’s a relationship to plant medicine when
it is entered through the door of the traditions that brings people more to a sacred connection
of their life, their path. I think the word “drug” is really … has
a lot of negative connotations. I can’t think of any, you know, if some drug
actually cures someone, it’s medicine. I haven’t heard of people being off the rails. I’ve seen people off the rails. Before I took the final leap, I needed to
hear it from a psychedelic badass. That person is Ram Dass. His real name was Richard Alpert. Born to an affluent New England family. He attended Harvard, and after graduation
began as a researcher at the university. It was the 1960’s and LSD had just been discovered. The government was still studying its effect
on individuals and enemy combatants. While a researcher at Harvard, Alpert, and
professor Timothy Leary started running experiments on students with psilocybin mushrooms and
LSD (both of which were legal at the time). The results were nothing short of miraculous. Users were reporting that they were having
life-changing experiences including a study that showed that 60% of alcoholics that were
given one dose of psilocybin mushrooms in the right set and setting were never alcoholics
again. How could everybody not know about this. Discouraged with the West, he headed to India. His guru named him Ram Dass, and when he came
back to the United States and published his book “Be Here Now,” he was followed around
by massive groups of young people. If anybody has the right intent to want to
go to their own spiritual insides, the psychedelics are wonderful for that…wonderful. Would you recommend that somebody looking…Yes,
yes. So seekers should go find a Shaman…sure…and
go down and…sure…sure. That was it. I was going to gather up a group of friends
who wanted to take the risk and go as deep into our minds as humanly possible. Things seem to be falling in place. It feels like it’s guided. It feels like it’s meant to be. So, for me, I’m just letting it go. I just assume that every miracle that is going
to happen is about to happen and I should just kind of enjoy it and uh let it happen. I have chosen to work with the massa which
is a medicine bundle, meditations, rituals, counseling, and working with ancestral medicines
such as Wachuma or San Pedro which are ancestral medicines that have been used for over 5,000
years in the Andes of Peru by pre-Incan cultures that were masters of accessing dimensions
of consciousness that are so deep that we often don’t access. You know, I feel like it doesn’t matter where
in the world you go, you will always find your kind. And when it comes to spirituality, I respect
anything that, or anyone that walks respecting the planet, and loving nature, and opening
their heart to the universe, and love itself. As long as that’s the main priority behind
your religion or your ceremonial, I’m down with you. I’ve got a few intents. Some are very personal which I’m gonna try
to bring back to my family and loved ones, and try and take some of that knowledge or
a glimpse of the other dimensions around which I’ve been trying to do in artificial ways. You know sometimes with my artwork and creativity,
and in another way with less natural things. Sometimes that’s an anesthetic for pain or
with just day to day life gets you down. But ya, this is something that’s been coming
for a while for me to come do this, But it hasn’t been the right moment in my life. It all seemed to just fall into place naturally. I’m here to have sort of a rebirth to tap
into a place I guess I’ve never gone, and so I don’t know what that is, but hopefully,
it’s a good thing and I’ll be able to get through it. When you drink the medicine, 50% of the medicine’s
responsibility is to do all the healing, all the cleansing, all the awakening, all the
clearing, all the harmonizing that it needs to. But, the other 50% of taking it further, taking
it deeper is always yours. Part of my work in this is to make the most
gentle transition possible. From being very sleepy to being fully awake. Really looking forward to tapping into some
of those guys stuff upstairs. The San Pedro trip was gnarly. It was really insane because Freddy Puma,
you know, the Shaman that introduced us to the catalyst to a special journey (which was
San Pedro the drink), he’s so in tune, that guy. I recall being at the top of the mountain,
at the top of the plateau where we were all just so tired from this massive high altitude
trek. We’re finally getting some air, and you’re
just looking off into these amazing clouds that are flying right at you and you’re at
the precibus of this mountain top, and you see hundreds of feet below you, and I got
this enormous sorrow that I was just overwhelmed with. And the sorrow that consumed me was something
that I’ve been carrying around for many years. Kind of like an anger, why am I here. Like, dad, I didn’t knock on your balls, you
know, to come out into this universe anger that I’ve been holding since I was a teenager. You know what I mean. Why stay in the…Why suffer? Why struggle? When you can liberate al of that and be of
higher service while being gentle on yourself. I know that you need your ups and downs so
you can be human and enjoy life and transition because its part of all of the beauty of existence
is to be sad and to enjoy happiness. You need to know both sides. But this overwhelming sadness wasn’t mine. It didn’t belong to me. Ever since I was a little kid it didn’t belong
to me. It’s not mine. I’m a passenger like Iggy Pop says. You know what I mean? I’m here to ride this in a respectful way,
respect everything that I come across and, you know, walk my path with love and say goodbye
after my journey’s done. And he came out. I felt this warm energy behind me, and there
he was…he was on the rock overlooking the clouds that are flying towards me. I started crying, you know. And he touched my shoulder, and he said, “It’s
not yours. Let it go.” One two three, go. If my trip ended today, I’ve had twenty years
of heavy pain lifted off my shoulders, and I’d be a happy camper. I’m feeling really, really, really, light
on my feet, happy, appreciative, and receptive, feminine you know. I’m kind of a Tomboy. It’s about time I step into my femininity. My full intent coming down here…my macro
intent was to try to share with everybody in the world for that matter that there’s
different ways to see reality and that we sort of in this moment of chaos need to take
a step back, everybody, and just try to see things a little differently. The only way that you’re supposed to fulfill
your role is by being yourself. That is the heightened you. You attract more love and you attract more
energy. One my of the things that I asked
for is to face my fears and I realized that I don’t need to face my fears. My fears aren’t going to go away first. I have to accept myself with my fears. Each person has a pattern. And that pattern is 50% woven by the person
and 50% by the divine. Ayahuasca is capable of changing that whole
pattern. From being one person one day, the next day
you’re a completely different person. I’m open to light and love and just good vibes
and anything that isn’t on that vibration or frequency, I’m just like, I don’t even
see you, you don’t even exist. So, that’s how I’m walking into this ayahuasca
trip. I’m in a very receptive place. I just, you know, I know what I’m about. I know what I stand for. I know what I resonate with. I just hope to walk that path, and whoever’s
walking along that path, I hope to meet you and take this trip together. It happened for me in my ayahuasca experience
when I was just sitting there and I realized that I had just died. As I was looking at death and experiencing
death I realized how dynamic it was and I realized that I never needed to fear death
again. It was totally liberating, and as I spent
time in this ayahuasca experience, I realized I was sitting in a place that I could ask
any question. I could go into the future. I could go into the past. Whatever I wanted to know. I’m gonna ask a big question. So, I decided to ask, “Why do bad things happen?” Immediately upon asking that I was whisked
out into the edge of space back to where when you were a kid you’d go, “Ya, but what’s past
space?” And people would go, “More Space.” “What’s past that?” I was out there looking on the edge looking
at everything in the universe basically contained. Like God would look at it. And as I’m looking at it, a spirit said to
me, “You see that? It’s totally balanced. It’s perfect.” And I looked at it and I was like, “Wow” It’s
true it was totally balanced. If something was to happen over here it will
just be made up over here. As soon as I had that realization, I was sucked
right back in sitting in that room. As I was coming out, I started to laugh. I was laughing, and I realized that I just
got the entire human cosmic joke. Here we are with God the Man with the white
beard, Buddha, Mohammed, Jesus..all these men and I was with God, and it was a woman. That stuck with me every day since my ayahuasca
experience. For me, ingesting the medicine was the destruction
of everything I’ve ever known; everything I’ve ever believed in; everything I’ve ever
thought was true. I tried to reason it for a while..two days. After I tried to reason the idea that it’s
a hallucinogenic drug, Michelle. It takes things from your subconscious and
projects them. There’s absolutely no way there’s any truth
in what you envisioned. It’s just a trip. You read tons of books on alchemy. You have tons of information about symbolism
and religion deep embedded into your brain since you’re a little kid. But I know in my heart of hearts it’s not
true and that everything that I have ever known could quite probably be bullshit. And it makes me happy. I felt a peace and calm that I’ve never experienced
in my life…an overwhelming feeling that I could relax and sort of constantly be shedding
my way through life or my armor and stripped everything away. Put me in contact with something that was
a benevolent higher power. That’s the only way I can describe it. It’s such a hard time. in the middle of it. a surgeon, I felt my wounds just opened
up and I was feeling pain. Like I grew up and was able to love myself
just a little bit more.Once I got through that hard part or the part that I needed to…get
out. It was just…Definitely, the best life changing
experience that I’ve ever had or been through. When people access these medicines they need
to access with full love and with full willpower. Otherwise, they need to find other ways. People will transcend anyways, now is the
time. And these medicines are major assistants,
major helpers., major masters. You know, assisting this process of transition
for humanity from one level of consciousness to a higher level of consciousness. I’ve lost a lot of anger, a lot of hatred
and a lot of…you know what if you’re an asshole be an asshole, it’s your fate. You know what I mean, I’m easy now easy now. Like, I’m not angry anymore at all the mean
people in the world. you know, cause I accept that they’re part
of it. And it’s all good, you know what I mean? It’s not my walk but, you know, do your thing. And I respect your path but don’t come near
me with your evil energy cause I’ll knock you the fuck out. It all come down to intent with me. If you’re intent is right it’s gonna work
it’s gonna be better than you thought and you’re gonna have a lot less’d seemed
to me like nature recognizes that people are highly stressed and that people need healing
medicines for the problems of addiction and depression. I kept looking for ways to transcend on a
daily basis and I was introduced to Sri Sri Ravi Shankar his breathing technique. Called (39:24), the technique is being done
by millions of people. From prisoners to inner city youth who have
been trained by Sri Sri to use the technique to overcome their physical environment and
give themselves internal strength. Sri Sri’s logic goes that when we are born
we draw in our in our first breath and when we die we let out our final breath. But most people think nothing of it in between. When in fact, breathing may be our most valuable
capability. Breath is an important tool, you know. For every emotion, there is a particular rhythm
in the breath. And, if we attend to the breath by manipulating
your own breath you can slip into the altered state of consciousness at will. I learned the (40:25) breathing which blew
my mind. The fact that I was able to put myself into
a psychedelic state with just my breath. Lightning bolts were shooting out of my hands
and feet, time stood still. I continued to get together with my friends
to talk about our experience and how we were integrating our psychonaut training into our
lives. There’s a whole group of scientists, very
few but enough, who think that maybe the brain doesn’t produce the consciousness. Maybe the brain filters consciousness. You’re saying We’re transmitters? We are transmitters…Huh cool…And what
we are transmitters of is that infinite potential that we spoke of, that feeling of possibilities. And when you start to break down the boundaries,
then all that is left is the infinite. So the boundaries are like your prejudices? Things that you know that you’ve accumulated
throughout life that you’ve either repel or are attracted to? Yeah, every boundary is a conceptual boundary
in consciousness. This is an Earth rover. This gives me an opportunity to come to this
planet and step into this suit have these life experiences, be creative and marvel at
this planet that we come to. And it’s so funny because A. I came to this
whole thing not spiritual, B. Once I call the nature of the cell membrane and the cell
receptors, I said, “Oh my god.” Instantaneously I had to recognize that if
you buy the science then it’s not is there or is there not. There’s a spirit. So it really helped me to bring my scientific
mind and my kinda spiritual experience in together and really they’re not different
at all. We’re just discovering through all these pathways
how all of that is one. After I decided to really journey with the
plants was when things sort of changed. When that older boyfriend of mine, I was like
twenty-four at the time and he told me I was an idiot. And he said,”You are very passionate but you
have nothing to back up how you feel about the world.You don’t read, you don’t have,
you know. You read one book and you can get twenty years
worth of research, in one book! And kind of opened up my mind, to do research,
and to fill my mind. So know when I see the world when I do a psychedelic,
I think metaphorically. I think on so many different layers. You know, and of course, I enjoy the moment
too. I can chase sensations like any of them. You know, I love to feel good and have fun
and interact with people but you know information is so beautiful and if we could just tap into
the reservoir and the fountains of the people before us. You know you, never know where it can take
you. When I lost paul, I was like I went through
about a year of being like an animal. Like, what could I do physically to just get
my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and
how we just come here and can disappear at any moment? How could I get my mind off that? So I went summer crazy nuts Berzerko. I did anything I could do to get away from
myself and I’ll tell you that my ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here. It wasn’t a sadness that he’s gone, it was
more like a jealousy that he’s there first.That’s fucked up…but yeah. I think it was affirmed to me in the ayahuasca
experience and in some other trips that I’ve had in my life where what was happening is
when I took the medicine or I meditated and it went inside basically I was taking filters
off is what was happening. So all this bullshit…reticular activation
system, it’s like Doors of Perception when he popped it he felt like that filtration
mechanism that we create by the age of 7 which is lifted off. You know how you receive so much information
in your visual cortex but your brain only accepts a certain amount so that you’re not
overwhelmed, that’s your reticulation system deciding according to your wants likes and
fight or flight deciding what information you’re going to take in. Each time I got together with my fellow psychonauts,
we felt stronger and stronger about the need to get the information out so we could help
others access some of these ancient techniques that have been so perfectly found in our lives. We should just …the True Reality Society
should set up a place in like, Costa Rica…like a haven for people who think the same way…put
them all around the world…I like that…and the consciousness of it is like…I’m in. I’m in. Everything’s rolling along. Things are falling into place and like everything
in life, you want validation. You want to know that it’s having some type
of an effect beyond just, “hey I’m having a good time. I’m learning a lot. I’m having all these cool experiences. Is something really happening?” And I was looking for some kind of sign that
it was making a difference because I couldn’t see what the difference was. And other than my own friends and the people
around me. So I was kind of like “Oh God give me a sign
here that this is making a difference there is something to it.” And then the phone call came from Gerry who
I hadn’t seen since we shot with Deepak in his apartment years earlier. Unbeknownst to me, Gerry had taken Deepak’s
advice as well and he went down to Costa Rica to do a plant medicine called Iboga that comes
from an African root. It’s the strongest psychedelic known to man
and Gerry was taking it to see if he could break his addiction. The full moon came to Gerry and asked him
if he wanted to see why he was so messed up. Because of my life, I had addiction issues,
tons of women issues, ego issues out the gazoo, smoking, drinking, you name it, I was a fan
right? I said, “What’s wrong with me?” And so, what happened then, my body went to
a house I hadn’t seen in 48 years. It was my grandfather’s house in Scranton,
Pennsylvania. And at the front of the house, it was like
a 3-year old me going like this to me like he’s waving me in. And I’m looking at the floor, and as a kid,
I knocked over a cranberry juice or grape juice and it hit the wall, and that stain
was on the wall (this is how perfect detail) and the next thing you know, the kid opened
the door and went like this like go look at it. My grandfather was sexually molesting me and
I was three. The moon told Gerry to go see his dead grandfather
and have him explain why he had done it and give him an apology. Gerry went to go see his grandfather who denied
that it had happened and sent him away. She told him to get his father to help him
to get an apology from his grandfather. And he said that he was sorry and I told him
that I forgave him even though he wouldn’t do anything for me. The guy, the shaman goes, “Hey, go to the
moon.” Back to the moon. I said, “Mrs. Moon, what can you do for me?” And she said, “Open your chest,” and I went
like this and my heart was in there. The moon took my heart out and washed it. The shaman said, “What is she doing?” I said, “She’s washing it like this.” like she has hands right? Crazy, but truth. She’s washing it and I said, “What should
I do with it?” to the shaman, and he said, “have her put it in your left hand. I said, “Mrs. Moon would you put it in my
left hand?” And she put it in my left hand. And I said, “What do you want me to do want
me to do with it?” And he said, “Put it in your chest.” And I went to put it in my chest, and it got
here and it was black again. So it only stayed pink for like I don’t know
5 seconds. And I said, “I’m not putting this thing in
me because it’s shit. You know, it’s terrible.” He said, “Ask her for a new one.” So I said, “Mrs. Moon, could I please have
a new heart?” And she said, ” Ya.” Then she gave me a new heart. Then I put it… I said, “What do yo want me to do with it.” And she said, “Put it in your left hand and
put it in your chest.” Then the next day I was a different guy. He hasn’t touched drugs since, and he’s able
to have a drink socially without needing to get drunk. He’s reunited with his family, and since the
first time, he’s in a real relationship. The first time I was invited to do plant medicine,
I thought the person was crazy. I was like, “You’re gonna take a drug to get
spiritual? I don’t think so.” And I wanted nothing to do with it, and it
freaked me out. My mom was a meth addict and I was a meditator. Finally, this woman who’s like just a love
in my life invites me to go. So I went. And that night she told me to set some intentions
of what you want to see. And I was like, “Okay, I want to see why I
keep attracting the same psycho guy over and over with a different face. Sucking the life out of me.” And the second thing I wanted to see was What
was I here to do. And so that night it was just one of the most
amazing nights of my life. I was shown exactly who I am, what I’m here
to do, and exactly why I kept attracting that same psycho guy over and over and over again. It’s just amazing cuz Gerry and I wake up
every day and we’re just like, “Wow, is this our life?” We just feel so blessed to be in love with
our best friend and to be doing what we love. Immediately when we came back and my kids
saw me and they knew I was a different guy, and they knew that something changed. As he walked through the door I could see
a visible a difference let alone, when I was actually talking with him I was Like, “I’ve
gotta give this thing a whirl. If it could turn him around in an 180, then
what could it do to me?” The first time I saw Gerard after he did plant
medicine, he didn’t even have to speak or say one word to me. I could tell as I walked up to him, about
15 feet away, I could tell he was a changed person. The chances of someone coming out of that
severe of a lifestyle case is very rare. I didn’t want to drink anymore. I was smoking 2 packs of cigarettes a day. It went from that nothing immediately. I can’t even think about doing drugs. Like I wouldn’t even have the thought to go
do some drugs. He’s like, “Zappy, not only did I take plant
medicine and break my addiction in one session, but I’ve actually opened up a center for people
to come and expand their consciousness, heal themselves, break addiction, and it exists”
And I was like “Oh, God it manifested from that conversation with Deepak that day where
he said ‘Stir it up in the pot and drink it.'” The moon told me, and that sounds ridiculously
crazy, but it told me to go buy a center and to make it a plant-based center, told me what
building to buy, told me what to pay for it, told me how to treat my girlfriend, told me
how to treat my children, told me that everything was going to be okay. His place is called Rythmia, and where is
it? Set up a place, like in Costa Rica. This was the miracle I needed. This place had manifested out of that single
conversation, and the desire to help people break the wiring. The first ever clinic where people can go
to expand their consciousness, and heal themselves. While you’re at Rythmia, you can receive counseling
and spiritual development, including a program developed specifically for Rythmia by Rev.
Michael Beckwith called The Answer Is You. It’s a consciousness expanding program that
allows people to 1. take 100% responsibility for their own life;
come out of the shame and blame game, blaming others. 2. It moves you through a period of forgiving
yourself and forgiving all others so you can be clean inside. 3. You begin to embrace the vibration of intentionality,
having an intention or direction of how you want your life to be. You have to chose this. If we don’t choose it, then the undertow of
the human society is choosing for you. Going to a place like what is being created
at Rythmia, a place where you can literally just come back to life’s rhythm. You know the miracle that you’re going to
get is that you’re going to get is that you’re going to get the real truth. And the real truth is that we are all of us
connected from the same thing. And that love is the thing that holds us all
together, and when you get to that truth, that’s the whole thing that you’ve been running
from your whole life is that one truth. And you come and you come to a place like
this and you see that that’s the truth. Then there’s the miracle, and you can walk
away and go, “You know what? I lost everything this weekend or this week,
but I gained my life.” And what more can you ask for in a vacation? Everything I’ve gone through has truly been
worth it because even before this movie’s finished, it’s already changed the world because
this place exists. Every act that comes from purpose is supported
by nature and has the potential to change things in ways you can never dreamed of How
do I channel all of this connection into being an efficient human being in society…into
giving back because, for me, love is everything. You almost have to have a way to re-enter
the ayahuasca experience almost on a daily basis to stay tapped into it and it has to
be through meditation or through something that will deliver you back there if only for
a moment. All of us had life changing experiences. So, the question is, “How could these incredible
plant energies be illegal today to consume or even to study.” It turns out that the answer to that question
may be even more sinister than the reason they’d been taken out of religion. Money. Pharmaceutical companies are only interested
in selling their patented petroleum-based medications that people need to take for the
rest of their lives. these drugs do not cure, but only mask the
symptoms and have significant negative side effects Here I am living my entire life sustained
by plants. I’m eating vegetarian, and my day job is bringing
out a plant-based formula to help people with addiction. I owe everything to these ancient tools. Plant medicine, meditation, breathing these
are some of the tools that were once part of the religious tradition It’s time to bring
them back. We started the True Reality Society to create
a peace army to counteract mass violence in the world and to bring together people that
believe in the importance of going inside their minds. Breath in slowly and then breath out slowly. On the in breath perhaps having the thought
peace and on the out breath the thought joy. Peace
on the in breath and joy on the out breath. And bring your awareness into your heart now,
and remember a great experience of love. Remember a great experience of compassion…a
great experience of joy…a great experience of equanimity… the
peace that passes understanding. And now, bring your awareness back into your
whole body and allow the boundaries of your body to slowly dissolve
and merge with your surroundings. Recognize that every boundary is conceptual. There is no boundary there is no national
boundaries there are no tribal boundaries, no ethnic boundaries, no racial boundaries,
no religious boundaries. They are all imagination and they have limited
our potential. We are the stars, and we are the sky, and
we are the moon, and we are the galaxies. We are the cosmic horizon. We are the big bang. We are the laws of nature. We are plank-scale space-time geometry where
everything dissolves into all possibilities. We are platonic values like truth goodness
beauty harmony evolution are embedded as the essential role of the universe. Where there is mathematical truth, but there
is also physical truth. Where there is the poetry of the universe
and the dance of the universe. And we are that dance. As…says look at these worlds spinning out
of nothingness. These are all within your control. We come spinning out of nothingness scattering
stars like dust. Out beyond all the ideas of right-doing and
wrong-doing the field. I’ll meet you there. So, remember the field that you went to. It was beyond right-doing and wrong-doing. It was the field from where we come and for
which we long for. I’ll let Roberto finish his Peruvian shamanic


  1. Thank you for making this amazing film . I want to come visit rythmia to aid my spiritual healing

  2. After watching this film, I knew I had to go to this Rythmia place. It's definitely more expensive than I thought. Currently saving up for it. I can't wait. I feel like it'll be life changing. Great film!! TRUTH

  3. The ultimate reality of human life is based on the assimilation with Nature !!! Meditation Breathing and plant !!

  4. These folks are lucky enough to be able to go to where these medicines are legal. What about those of us whose lives were/are devastated due to getting caught with these substances in countries like the United States? Personally I would love to go to Costa Rica and be healed with Iboga but due to fascist drug laws I am refused a passport and I am not alone. This is all well and good for the 1% but what about the rest of us?

  5. "Miracles" come at a price. As much as I would love to visit Rythmia it is way too expensive and kind of goes against the message that this video sends out and contradicts itself.,This video includes clips commenting on how the pharmaceutical industry is corrupt and makes money off only masking symptoms (which it does) yet if you want to visit Rythmia it cost thousands & thousands of dollars. Now, I'm not suggesting the plant medicine doesn't work, my point is shouldn't something so good for mankind come at an affordable price and not just for wealthy people?

  6. Think long and hard before asking questions in hyperspace. Be prepared to spend time on every trip thereafter fielding answers. Pass a note, don't put up a billboard.

  7. How do we prove Iboga is the strongest psychedelic known to man. Toé has been claimed to be stronger, seems difficult to prove what's the strongest. "Iboga is claimed to be the most powerful psychedelic in the world, with strong effects often lasting for days", might be a better way of saying it.


  9. Fuck, this film SUCKS! Another well to do white guy mansplains Ayahuasca with tenuous Bible links and Deepak fucking Chopra… UUUUURGH! " I was so rich and successful that my life lacked "meaning" but fortunately I possesed all the resources needed to jump up and travel halfway around the world to a wealthy retreat designed for shallow materialist motherfuckers to find the answers needed to make them three dimensional thinking beings… Then I can tell everyone else and be a messenger like my friend Deepak… Fuck this guy! Shame Aya didn't cleanse you of yer starfucking obsession…

  10. Really cool movie. I thought I'd just watch 5-10 min but watched it through credits to the guided meditation.
    I think I need to go with the intention of killing my EGO cause much of what was talked about here I already gained in my life. It's a GREAT REMINDER as I've strayed far from this path but never forgotten. So I'd have to say my EGO has gotten so big it clouds my ability to see the forest while standing in front of one tree. I also need to let go of the 'blinders' I use to protect myself. They just limit my vision of a bigger picture. I need to CONNECT with others as I've seen how we are all connected from other 'higher states of consciousness' both inguested and from meditation yet I don't do either anymore. I like the idea of Rythmia and also just going out into the wild with a shaman. Hopefully I'll experience both before my 50th in 3 years or will give that to myself for my birthday. Great story and bless you for sharing.

  11. They're illegal bc ppl would wake up from the illusion they're in. The control system would be done.

  12. My journey begins in 3 weeks. I'll be at Rythmia on June 2nd. Can't wait… I'm thinking about doing pre and post videos to see if there is a noticeable change with me. Thoughts?

  13. One last thing, I too was worried about the costs. I see comments about how expensive it is. How I rationalized it is that in the grand scheme of things, I've wasted thousands of dollars on vacations, partying, material shit and what not and none of that stuff ever had a chance of changing my life. I feel lost. I feel like I'm supposed to be doing something greater than what I'm doing. I don't mean from a financial perspective. I want to wake up and enjoy my life. So I booked the trip. All in all it's about $5K. Would have been a little cheaper but I didn't want to wait until October. When it comes to changing your life who really wants to wait for that. Like "I'll look for my miracle later.." Ha! don't get me wrong $5K is still $5K but it's a small price to pay if it changes your life and I believe it can. I guess we'll see in a few short weeks.

  14. I'm booked. scheduled for Rythmia July 28th 2018 :).. next.. this place… it looks like it quite a hike.. I need my healing first inside out, get in shape and then will go peru

  15. Uh ,ya, I am going to need you to show me where Jesus put Mana in the wine. Jesus never even touches the water, it is a drive by mircle, It says in John- 2: 7 Jesus told the servants, “Fill the water jars with water.” So they filled them up to the very top. 8 Then he told them, “Now draw some out and take it to the head steward,” and they did. 9 When the head steward tasted the water that had been turned to wine, not knowing where it came from (though the servants who had drawn the water knew), he called the bridegroom 10 and said to him, “Everyone serves the good wine first, and then the cheaper wine when the guests are drunk. You have kept the good wine until now!” .

  16. I was into it before he had to show his 'powerful friends' he's obtained since gainiing a large wealth of money. Joel Osborn???? He goes to him as a religious expert? That guy is only talking to him because he's a millionaire. Period. I think his goal is good…but the rest in marketing….showing who he knows in the millionaires club. Shame his ego got in the way there….

  17. I am a PsychoSpiritual Counselor who has been working with clients damaged by experiences with both ayahuasca and iboga, primarily because there was no followup or aftercare to help them re-integrate after returning to their previous situations. I wrote a very thoughtful email to Rythmia with concern about followup and aftercare for program participants, offering to help in some manner. I imagined a network of counselors trained in followup support spread across the country who could be referred to if help was needed. I put a great deal of thought into this but never received anything in the way of a reply. This leads me to conclude that this is not a program I would recommend to any of my clients. This is unfortunate because I feel strongly that psychedelics are an amazing breakthrough gift for those seeking to heal and to evolve their lives.

  18. I wish everybody would stop wondering about the brain and consciousness by waiting on mainstream science to agree.

    Go see Ramtha and say “fuck the bullshit!”

    He’s been teaching the truth about us as consciousness and energy creating the nature of reality since the 80s.

    Anything that you’ve ever wanted to know about your origins and possibilities can be revealed to you within weeks of experiencing Ramtha. I personally went to Ramtha’s School of Enlightenment for one retreat, but you don’t have to go to the school. I started with Ramtha’s books A Beginners Guide to Creating Reality, The White Book, and a couple of videos. I had seen Ramtha on What the Bleep Do We Know, and I wanted to know who the fuck that was speaking like that. I wanted to speak like that, from a place of knowingness with no reservations.

    I went to the school because I wanted to experience it. And, if you’re someone who wants to see other humans do extraordinary things (for inspiration snd encouragement) right in front of your eyes and witness an Ascended Master, you may want to.

    It’s been about 10 years so I would like to go back to the school now. But, what you learn is the prize and you don’t have to go there to get it. You see you still have to do the work on your own, the Great Work. But, you’ll understand reality so much better and you’ll have so many tools for your journey. After all, it is essentially a lone journey because your particular mind is only yours.

    Right now I am manifesting Rythmia, that’s why I’m watching this video and filling up on anything Rythmia, but it is the confidence I’ve built from learning from Ramtha that assures me that I’m already there!

  19. Great movie!

    I loved it!

    It’s so funny, I’ve wanted to go to the jungle and do Ayahuasca since my early 20s. Now I’m in my early 40s and I just found out recently that all the things that I wanted to do then are now possible.

    Being a woman, when I was in my 20s, I kept being told that if I found a shaman, they would not allow me to participate in any ceremonies because of my gender. I didn’t realize how completely I’d given up on that dream until I found out about Rythmia recently.

    Now, I can’t stop thinking about it and the dream has come back with a vengeance!

    A great vengeance though! It’s pushing me to go! Gotta love that!

  20. Only thing this movie made me feel is more despair. How am I supposed to get that kind of money? Especially USD is 5 times more valuable than my currency…

  21. If only it were free.. anyone want to gift me a free trip since we are all one and all and my healing is your healing. Haha

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